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A blog by Chooky in General

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A weight loss surgery blog by Chooky on BariatricPal. 42 entries on surgery, recovery and progress.

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dark days

O.K I have not posted for some time now and have to say I hope this helps as it has done in the past for me. Oh god i need some help right now. Am really struggling with a lot of things going on in my life at the moment and my one truest and oldest friend of all has come knocking, actually both of them have. Depression and my bestest buddy in the whole wide world FOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDD. What is wrong with me???? This moodsettles over me like a big dark cloud and nothing shakes it,well somethi

silver linings

I haven't blogged for a while,, wow this site has changed a bit. I have had one of the worst days here in a while and I know as I write this that in the grand scheme of things it is nothing absolutly nothing but I need to write it somewhere so it leaves me for a minute. Hubby has been away working since August and not really that contactable as phones drop out and coverage and ..... Kids are beginning to drive me nuts and little things with them that generally get piffiled away are getting ye
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Photo op

:cool:How come whenever a fat photo or v.unflattering photoof me ispassed around my mother in law wants a copy??? well 70kg and a tummy tuck and all prettied up for a friends bday photos getting passed around, and let me tell you no copies required thankyou very much:angry: In fact only comment made was what a good photo of my husband it was and he is nearly filling the whole thing (thats a different issue entirely) ok dad in law didn't know it was me and thats ok cos I still look at it and do

Job done

:smile2:Well its been ages since I blogged, but a fair bit has happened in that time. I past all the goals I set for myself and had the tummy tuck done on the 13 April so it was all before my one year bandaversary. How do I feel now????? Well thats the strange thing , instead of jumping up and down alday everyday I still find myself in that fat head space:confused:It takes a lot to see the changes we make and the fact that this is it forever is huge. Dont get me wrong its great and I now wiegh

Well

Comming to the end of my wieght loss with the band I am beginnig to realise just how all consumming my food issue's were. They just filled the days and nights with little or no room left over for anything else, this is where the big now problem is... There is this huge void in my life, if anybody had told me at hte beginning that I would feel this way I would of laughed and said no way, but after a life time of having this constant wheel running in my head for it to be gone has actually left

Ab bra ca dab bra

So I booked the tummy tuck and thats all fine and am happy with the decision until i dream repeatedly that i am in a magicicans show and am in one of those box'es where they saw you in half:sad::thumbup: It's not like I will cancel it or anything but....... geez Cheers Chooky

Whats that?

I was sitting at the breakfast table this morning and my son asked me "whats that?" Turns out he has never seen my collar bones before. lol Christmas here was great and was under my goal of 100kg and as it stands now am 88kg which is 7kg under my original goalso thats a total of 44kg lost in 7 months. No more fills for the forseeable future and picking a date for the tummy tuck is next. What a journey this has been and now the next phase has started.:confused: Cheers Chooky
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What happened back there?????

Nobody ever said "Hey you are getting really fat these day's". If I am honest I wouldn't of listened anyway but........ Holy Sh***t when did it happen???:tt1: What has brought this on? Well the whole house is asleep and not a creature is stirring not even a mouse, except for me who was lokking for a book and then started looking at a couple of old photo albums and it has left me in shock. Fat engagement , fat birthdays , fat weddings, (mine and others) fat look at my new baby's , fat on a c
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Twinkle Twinkle

:wink2:Well that's the xmas decorating done and the lights on and it's funny to see my 4 year olds face at the tree getting lit up, she thinks it's just the ducks nuts to see all that twinkle twinkle, I just think, thankgod that job is outta the way now I can start on the dish'es. We even made some Santa Button biscuits and due to yesterday's fill and the band in general there will be still biscuits tomorrow. Met a friend for coffee who has'nt seen me for about 30kg and even though it killed
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100

Went for fill yesterday and had the weigh in and it was a flat 100kg!!!! Not 99.9 noooo 100, the nurse said take your pants off , go on, But I didn't because thats just going back to all those mind games that I promised myself I wouln't resort to with the lapband:mellow:I know it says 99 in the mornings so...... It was still dissappointing though. We are going to turn the Christmas lights on tonight and have a bbq, but the next couple of weeks while school finishs up is just pack ed with play'
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Still GGRRRR

:cool2::cursing:Y Y Y Y am I still so GGRRRRR???????? HELP. The caffine has not fixed it, (I Know it makes it worse). Just biting everybodies heads off and needing to lay down on the floor and go to sleep, like that is gunna happen with 2 kids. Suggestions welcome........ You know what would help A BBBBIIIIGGGGGG juicy steak and mushroom sauce and fries and sour cream and grease and chocolate and all the yummy yummy yummy stuff.:laugh: Right I am off to yell at someone or something.... Ch
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Gggrrrr

GRRRRR I am so argh today, must be pms....:cool2::cursing::laugh: HAPPY TURKEY DAY to all the americans out there. Christmas is comming and all the choccies are in the study saying eat me.......:angry:Going to take them to mums so I cant eat them before Christmas agian this year. I am just a moody bitch today and grr at anyone who looks sideways at me, this is so not me, give it a coulpe of hours and it will be tears, this is worse today because i will not succumb to the choccies to make thin
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Broke it

:biggrin::biggrin::thumbup:99.6kgs today.. Broke that barrier with 5 weeks to spare. Normally I would celebrate by pigging out, but not anymore!!!!!!!:drool: That's 33kg gone.... woo hoo. Not far to go.... I keep jumping up and down. Cheers Chooky
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Happiness is natural

IS IT??????? Well the past few day's have made me slowly come to belive that it is.:huh2::smile2::tt1::smile2: Pre band I was a very different person to who I am now or perhaps to who I am becomming. NO not becomming, revealing to the world I guess. I was always stressed out, tired grumpy for the littlest things and always thinking of food or guilty over some food or worrying about something I was to fat for or to go to or even just do with the kids. In short I was plain miserable, and only
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Stuck

Ok...... I am stuck on a plateau both on the scales and in my head.:unsure:So far I have lost just over 20kg nad old clothes are fitting and people have noticed that I've lost wieght. I have been going to curves and walking but last week I just started to get a bit over it all:tt2: Does anyone think that plateau's are a way of maintaining along the way? I think that I am having this week off from curves and do some other stuff that doesn't make me want to poke my eyes out:biggrin:Focus on som
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The great devide

My world has become very obviously split into two neat compartments these past few days. Those who support me and those who don't:mad: The thing is I knew this was happening, but it is still a little baffling to find that you were only friends with some people because of your foodiness:confused: It's upsetting really because I actually thought the friendship was more than that but............... On a high note had the fill yesterday and the wiegh in , lost 5kg:thumbup: so am definatly on tra

Fill week

:laugh:Why is the week leading up to the fill the hardest????? Of course I know why, but it's a hard few days to get through. Really I find myself smelling bakeries and bbq's that last week never bothered me and I can feel myself picking at things that last week I wouldn't of touched. So I really struggle with the last couple of day's. Any idea's guy's to help combat this???? Cheers Chooky:thumbup:

Gym

:thumbup:I went to the gym after all that whinging about it, only really put in half the effort i ususally would but I s'pose its better than no effort at all today. I was putting off getting out of the car and actually going in the door at the gym by cleaning out my bag and purse, I found a drivers license with a photo from a few years ago on it and all I can say is I was really shocked by the id photo. Was I really that fat? :smile2: why didn't somebody tell me?????:thumbup: I mean I knew I

To gym or not to gym

:thumbup::confused:I am over it today, I just can't face the gym again....Aday off won't hurt a little voice is saying but my butt is sasying ," well we know were that got us before don't we?":mad2: I am counting down to this holiday, I so want to just do nothing for a few days. Hence all the exercise because the holiday requires tons of suncream and bathers. The big difference this time is I am losing weight for ever this time not just for the trip and till I hit the buffet at breakfast, so

up & down

Today is bad bad day. Everything is up and down, the mood the scales the food.......:thumbup:I guess this is one of those days i used to have pre banding, you know the days, it all just gets to you. I have eaten a heap of crap today too. YYYYYYYY did I do this??????? Help>>>>>>> I am just not in the mood for anything.. Exercise can take a big jump for itself today, It is slipper day here. This will pass I know .. but for now it really sucks:crying: No Cheers today

Big fat cheater

HA HA People are starting to notice that I have lost weight, which has been nice and I am finally after all these years acceptting the compliments.:thumbup:Un til today at the gym one of the other members commented that I was looking like I had lost wieght, when one of the instructors butted in and siad " eh but she doesn't have work at it like you though cos shes been banded so its just the cheats way":cursing: This woman then went "oh how dissappointing for you"!!!!!!! WHAT THE??????:eek:

Shake it baby!!

Back on the protien shakes again... as that fill sure is working hard this time and not letting much down at all, was so happy the yogurt went down:thumbup: But.... I think I'm going to start hanging around the butchers and maybe licking the windows because I really need to eat a giant juicy steak.:frown: My friend said to me at least you can't be a piggy anymore, all I could think was what kind of piggy???? Roast? Sweet & Sour? Sizzling????? AAGHHHHH:cursing: I swear if I see anyon

Exhuasted

:cursing:EXHAUSTED..... No I haven't been slogging it out at the gym or running a marathon, it's pathetic really.... I was doing the afternoon kids sports run around. Finally they are ironed and put away for the night, so I'm hiding from the washing and the dish's hoping the faries will magically do it for me:biggrin: It's alright I'm not that delusional yet. Big question and I would love some feedback on htis one:thumbup: Party at a Chinese saturday night!!! What will I eat???? It will

Itchy Feet

Well its fudge cake day today, so far I am surviving it, but there are only so many cups of coffee I can drink, especially since everyone else is saying "Well a little bit won't hurt". But everyone here know's just how much alittle bit can and will hurt:frown: The other thing is I normally go to the gym in the mornings and hadn't really noticed how I get into a routine and now that I am not there it is really bugging me. Took me longer to get ready today as well because I couldn't just chuck

Sunny Days

:cursing:Thank goodness the sun has come out..... I think the constant rain must contribute to the low day's, but today warm and sunny.... so is the mood:smile: Back to curves today and finally got around to getting the smart card thingy, but after my workout the computer said I had only burned 350 calories which has really made me look at everything going in my gob today. So I've cleaned the windows but.... Now I'm just confused. I really thought it would burn more than that for some reas

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