I'm watching morning news. An anorexic girl is on TV that's a single mother with 4 children and only eats 500 calories a day. She's crying and saying "I may as well have cancer." But at the same time, she runs a pro-anorexic website. Apparently, there are hundreds out there that encourage girls to be anorexic. She gives them tips and training tools. Many sites get 200,000 hits.

I saw that picture of the anorexic girl on the beach and it nauseated me. What they are doing to their bodies. That girl could drop dead at any minute like Karen Carpenter.

I have been so tempted all of these years to make myself vomit after over eating but thankfully I knew somehow that it wasn't a good idea. I sure don't need any more addictions in my life! I'm the kind of person who can get addicted to bake potatoes even.

Hi Vines. Thank you for your post. I appreciate what you wrote very much.

When I read my post I decided to look at it like I would look at someone else who said those things and I do see something I have been blocking in my mind.

Vines, I do have moments of weakness where I feel sad and depressed, but it is not a danger to me. I wouldn't ever consider leaving my son behind. My thought of suicide aren't 'gee I wish I was dead' but more like 'death doesn't seem so bad'.

Maggie