Friends, I'm in a bad, bad situation. I've consumed more sugar in the past 3 months than all my life combined. What the heck happened to me?

I never drank Coke. EVER. I had no desire for Coke or Pepsi because I was addicted to Diet Pepsi. Several months back I had a real Coke. Then another. I saw other Bandsters drinking Dr. Pepper and Coke, so I started. Now I can't stop. I'm actually being serious for a change.

Yesterday I went all day with no soda. Then I actually popped a Pepsi open at 9:30 p.m. IN BED.

ANOTHER CONFESSION: I picked up a new habit of eating in bed, then going right to sleep. I almost called Michelle last night, but the phone was too far away.

I need to confess this because I'm really scared. I've gained about 10 pounds, and I want to stop the insanity. It's 2pm. I switched back to Diet Pepsi today, and I ate plain Protein for lunch. All I need is one day. I need to make it past one night without opening a Coke.

Why did this happen? How the hell can someone my age come up with new bad habits this late in the game. And yes, I said HELL because that's what it's like.

I gave up my goodies and soda and got sick. Band hurts today - bad enough that I'm on liquids. Haven't done all liquids since January. Had delicious low sodium broth for dinner, then 2 S/F Pops. That liquid filled me pretty tight. I'm most likely dying again (it's a joke, I'm still kicking.) So I'm still clean & need to upate my numbers.

Fortunately I work mostly with my family. There's a few other people here, but they mostly keep to themselves (and all eat healthy and bring in their lunch everyday, go figure). I can't say I'd give in every day if there was an Erin in my office, but I'd probably give in enough to halt my weight loss even more than it's already been halted by my lack of exersize (which ended last week, but anyway). I think that I could ask a person to not offer me stuff, but I'm not sure I have a strong enough personality to beg/demand/yell when she didn't respect my request. Probably until reading this thread, I wouldn't have considered something like that 'harassment' or 'hostile work environment', but now, I can totally see how it could be. But then again I don't think I've ever filed a formal complaint against anyone at the work place either.

I s'pose there's not really a 'point' to what I said above, just mostly to say that Lisa, you are a much strong person than I am, and I'm proud of you for escaping temptation so often when it's quite literally SHOVED right in your face.

I like the idea of a sign on the door that says "No food in my office unless you have an appointment in advance". It's not 'mean' but it gets the point across with a little humor.

Alternately, whenever you make/bake something for you and your hubby and there are leftovers you don't want, just put them on her desk. Maybe it'll drive home the point that you don't even want the extra of what YOU cook at HOME, let alone the crap she cooks in the office. I gotta say, preband, it's pretty possible that I ate as much as this chick does, but I didn't want people to see me doing it, you know?

Sorry your band is buggin you, but maybe that'll make it easier to go day 5 without sodas .