Is this gonna work? I am new at this new thread business...

News Flash: I am fat primarily because I am a stress eater. &, naturally, every day brings with it its own kind of stress. Yesterday, keys locked in a car (dh, not me, but yet it somehow was my fault that he couldn't find the spare set, & was going to have to shell out $ for the locksmith, but then I found them in a spot that he'd already checked?) & health care concerns... today, so far, it's mouthy, unhelpful children + me trying to squeeze in some work + a jam-packed schedule. It's ALWAYS SOMETHING. That's life! I get it. What I don't get is how to break the knee-jerk reaction that chomping on a handful of cookies or spooning out 1/2 a jar of chocolate fudge topping will calm me down, soothe me, get me to a place that I'm not a raving lunatic screeching @ her family. I HAVE the self-awareness. Stress = eat for me. What I NEED is alternatives -- it has to be something immediate, not "take a bubble bath before bed" or "go for a walk" -- suggestions?

(FYI, I am already working on MY back-to-school daily schedule, which will include work time + ME time each day during the hours when the kids are @ school. Then @ 3pm I turn into the taxi driver where my time is not my own. BUT... I do think that having a concrete daily plan that includes ME time will help w/the daily stress when it rears its ugly head... so, I do have THAT to look forward to starting on Monday!! So don't think I'm a *complete* basket case!)

Michelle, exercise really works to help me blow off steam. I found that I need it and have to get it in regardless or face ugly consequences, lol.

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Michelle, I'm just an eater. It doesn't matter the situation, I eat. But I have noticed lately with all the stress that I have caught myself standing in the kitchen with the cupboards open looking for anything I can just snack on. Right now my will power is knowing that I have a weigh-in in 2 weeks. I guess just knowing that I don't want to disappoint my Doc, keeps me focused. Hang in there. You'll figure it out. But you do need to put yourself first, I'm finding that out dealing with an addict in my house. Keep your chin up.

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That is all.

Laura, How did your appointment with the fill Doc go today?

I called AT&T around noon to report some problems we were having with our phone and they attempted to fix it thru the line but eventually decided they had to send some one out. So around 3pm here he comes. Turns out he had to redo all of the phone lines and all of the u-verse lines. And he also installed all new u-verse boxes and DVR. He was a real delightful guy and turns out he knows my cousin real well from AT&T. He also noticed that the other guy had not hook my TV up to HD. Heck, I didn't even know my tv had HD. WOW, it's amazing to watch tv now.

So, needless to say, we didn't make it to the hospital tonight. We stayed home and actually watched tv while it is storming out. We can do that know with fiber-optic. No more worrying about loosing tv when it rains or snows.

Off to bed, see ya all in the morning.

Laura, what is wrong???

Terry I am sending you lots of love and good thoughts!!

I am going to bed here in a minute!

Take care everyone!!

Morning gals

Just want to send you all big hugs, sounds like everyone is in a place, and not necessarily a good one.

I am heading out for my walk, back to reality this am

Good morning.

Up and at it. I have to take my Sis to her Doc appointment and than grocery shopping.

It's only supposed to get to 80 degrees today. We had a storm go thru last night and it brought a cold front with it. So the low 80's for the next 4-5 days and nothing but sunshine. I'm very happy about this since we are going to the State Fair this weekend and seeing Brooks and Dunn. I'm ready.

I haven't gotten on the scale yet this morning. I need to go do this. Keeping my fingers crossed. I've been working real hard on this the last few days. Keeping my mind busy on other stuff besides food. Realizing that just becasue I want to eat doesn't mean I need to eat. Huge difference there.

It's CTCD, so everyone try real hard.

Have a good one.

Good morning, Violets..

Ethan is here for the day and it's yucky weather out so don't know if we'll be able to go "fimming". He loved it yesterday. I was so hoping we could spend some time in there today, but it's supposed to rain most of the day.

Grady comes at 10:30 so I can watch him while Kris gets her hair cut. She's having a real hard time keeping him on schedule. He is in a crying mood lately and she's frustrated. I keep telling her, this too shall pass. She was supposed to go with us to a wedding this weekend, but decided it would be too hard on Grady. It's a 3 hour trip, then the wedding, reception and a 3 hour trip home. I can understand why she doesn't want to go, but I was looking forward to having her there with us. Bob's cousin's son and his partner are getting married.

Ethan is playing Wii right now so I better take the opportunity to get dressed for the day. He's here till 5 and then I have a meeting at 7.

Laura.. saw your post on Facebook. So sorry to hear about your band. Isn't the manufacturer responsible if there is a leak????

Everyone have a good day.. Will check in when I can.

Laura

I am so sorry

TracyK, Have a great time. I'll miss you.

Hmm, this touched my heart more than you'll know! Thank you!

Have fun Tracy

I'm getting things together here and then I'm heading away until Tuesday.

I am glad you had a good time and I am glad that you know where your head is now. Stay strong...I know it isnt easy.

and we have nicknamed his weewee "Nirvana" now.. cause he looks like that Nirvana cover out there lol.

Laura-this is the funniest thing i have heard in a long time!

If I disappear, have faith, I WILL be back!!! LOL

Good to see the flying monkies werent sent out! And happy belated b-day!

BB fans who is out of the house????

I am gonna kinda miss Jessie. He made me laugh. I am happy about what happened to Chima. She just didnt want to get voted out so she did it 'her way'. Kind of selfish though...shows she did not care about her teammates, just herself.

Please add "Sheila [my last name]" to any & all prayer lists, formal & informal, as we all know the amazing power of prayer. She's my MIL & we got the word last evening that she has lung cancer. Just a small spot, but still. The "C" word.

My always-stoic DH called me (I was driving kids to activities) & I couldn't even understand him on the phone he was crying so hard. So I rushed back home & just held him. When I finally spoke w/my MIL, she felt worst about upsetting him. She said she knew he was really upset because before they hung up, he said "I love you" to her.

She'll have a bone & brain scan asap to see if it's anywhere else. Treatment decisions will be made after that.

Thanks, friends.

I am so sorry to hear this. I will pray for all of you and pray that this was something that was caught in plenty of time! Keep us posted.

Michelle, I'm just an eater. It doesn't matter the situation, I eat.

This has TracyK written all over it. I love to eat. I love food. I am just an addict...plainand simple.

Morning gals

Just want to send you all big hugs, sounds like everyone is in a place, and not necessarily a good one.

No joke huh? At least we all have each other here! That is a wonderful feeling!

Laura

I am so sorry

Me too Laura!

OK so as you can see I am back from my trip. We stayed longer than originally planned which is fine by me. For some reason I can not seem to eat anything other than liquids and mushies. You would think that I would 'go with it' and lose some weight but I have been shoveling in the ice cream and candy. WTF is my deal, I mean really? Anyway...today is another day?! Right?!

Wow, I wish one of you lived right next door to me...so many things have happened that i need to talk about. DH is off until tomorrow night. Maybe I will give one of you a ring...whoever may wanna hear the crap! lol

Pamela-so sorry about your trip getting ruined like that. Sounds like your brother is married to a real winner!

I wonder how TracyinKS is doing.

Hi everyone I missed!

Love you all!

Laura, I am so incredibly sorry.

I can't get on facebook, so don't know what happened Laura, hoping this is a little glitch, not a life changing glitch!!

Glad you are back Tracy!!!

Any closer to a wedding date Haydee? That must be so frustrating!!!

Maybe we will get some cool weather, it has been in the 90's but the humidity has been so high and gross!! It takes your breath away!

Okay off to work!!

Not sure what exactly yet, they put the needle in- I had 3.25cc... drewback 0. So he filled it with 4cc, and immediately only drew back 1cc. He thinks there's a leak. Now, at MY request I had the fluro at $400 a month ago, and some reason they didn't do contrast. WTF. That is where I am most mad, we can't afford all this crap right now, and now they need me to do ANOTHER study at the tune of another $400. If there is a leak, and I imagine there is after their experimenting, it's another surgery; which I can't afford right now..and I really don't want another surgery

So just mad and sad and all those emotions.

I am weighing my options, I know Carson kicked my port and tore it out of one side so it's tilted, maybe he kicked the tubing too and detached it.. so this mean I'll need ANOTHER surgery after baby #2???

ARGH.

The manufacturer pays for it if the leak is their fault, like faulty-ness. I don't think detaching is their fault? Doc brought it up (acted all upset at the makers for me having a leak).

But I don't know when I can afford to do the contrast, with economy and customers not paying, my commission checks have been 1/3 what they were and I've been struggling to pay bills; we just got a check after re-financing the house from our old escrow for 1k, and it was a godsend, we sooo needed that money. Now I just gotta throw away half of it on another study when they should have done it? Not to mention it's 6 hours of driving for the day when I have to go down there, I just got back, I don't want to go back right now. blah blah blah.

The doc says he won't charge me for the study-- he didn't charge me for the fluro (for his time), but the HOSPITAL charges a lot, and he can't get that waived. He said he's going to try to call in a favor with a friend somewhere to get it for me really cheap or free, so I said well you look into that, and call my local hospital and get a cost.. if it's not much difference, I'd rather do it here.. not have to worry about what to do with Carson, the long drive, etc.

I want a new doc at this point, but I don't know that docs will take a complication in the middle of it.. plus, my doc on my last revision didn't charge me for him, but again I had to pay $3k to the hospital. So if I had to do it again, it would be at least $3k to the hospital (2 years ago, probably more now!!), and free for my doc.. not sure what a new doc would cost without that fee waived. Although my doc didn't say he'd waive his fee, so who knows.

Edited August 20, 200916 yr by FairyFacade