Is this gonna work? I am new at this new thread business...

Hi gals

I am strong this time. this is different... very different. I'm sad but happy because even if he thinks he is coming back, He has just given me the permission to move on Like I've been begging him to do for months now. I told him I would never leave but if he didn't want to be with me to let me go.

Enough of that, today is a good day. Going to the drive ins with the older kids to see Ugly Truth and Perfect Getaway and ds is staying with grammy.

Ok about the liquids.... well I have such great restriction that it put me post op, except once surgery swelling went down I got hungry. I did 1/2 cup servings of the chicken and cheese soup 3x a day no more for another 10 days and now I'm on 1/4 cup shredded lettuce and 1.5oz tuna/chicken salad made with homemade ranch (low fat sour cream and ranch mix) No more high cal ranch and junk and 1/4 cup shredded cheese, it fills 1/2 of one of my tea cups and I have 1 egg for breakfast and the tuna stuff for lunch and dinner. that has been about 10 days and I'm full... very full, no snacks, no bad stuff and 8-10 glasses of water a day. I have never had restriction like this.. Plus the mental part that I need to get to my happy spot so I can move on is a bonus too. Something to work for, and gets me out of bed.

Well, going to get ready to head out, love ya'll and thanks for the encouragement!

Kat - you might be right, but he may be in a rehab, he has been talking for a while about it, but either way... he could have let me know... I'm done

10 days of low sodium chicken broth and s/f pops...

How is that for clear liquids???

OMG what a scary thought! But worth thinking about! Somethings gotta give.

Tracyk...enjoying day 2!! BB is slowing down a bit, always does when school starts for me...but I LOVE JEFF! Did you see the fight? If not, put in Jeff and Russell fight on youtube...it is GOOD!

Looks like russell is finally gonna get his! lol I love it! Do you realize how many votes in the jury house he (Jeff) is gonna get for this one?

Thank you Pam!! I've been trying to spam it wherever I can LOL. Hopefully your rolodex is bigger than mine, I need 150 more votes to catch up to some baby names Abigail!!

In the baby forum I am in (I'm in a group like this, but for women who had babies in April.. how funny is that!), one of the girls lost her baby this past week to SIDs. I have actually been trying to forget about SIDs because it's makes me over-paranoid and have anxiety attacks.. but for it to happen to her, it's got me all nervous all over again. He was born April 10, and just died during an afternoon nap. And looking at her other posts, she was just recently saying how he's learned to roll over, tries to sit up, etc... just makes me sick to my stomach. I can't imagine. I don't want to imagine.

Jenn, That is so awesome. I admire your strength.

Home from work and very tired. I actually got in the pool today and did exercises. It felt so good. I'm glad I enoyed it because it's only going to be in the 70's the rest of the week. I miss summer already.

I know exactly the fear you are dealing with Laura. When Manda was born, a friend had a baby boy 2 months before---and lost him to SIDS at 5 months old. I had only recently got Manda to sleep through the night, and suddenly I was up waking HER up all through the night.

I am so sorry for your friend and her family, and also for you and the others whose lives had been connected. It is a scary thing.

Gives you FULL understanding of the statement that to be a Mom means your heart now lives OUTSIDE your body.....hugs

Laura -- that is just AWFUL!!! I did a research paper on SIDS in college and it's hard to believe they've made so little progress in understanding it. I'm so very sorry for your friend

Jenn - I'm thinking about you and hoping your day is better.

I just got back from one of the many training sessions I'll be taking this next month so that I can work the hotline at the Houston Area Women's Center (domestic and sexual abuse, shelter, advocacy, etc.). Tonight's session was so interesting. I know I'm really going to get into this. I've wanted to work there for years and years and finally am in a position to do it. 74 hours of training, too... isn't that cool?

More tomorrow.....I'm BEAT. XOXO

It's like yer going back to school Terry!

Good evening!!

Laura I am going to send you an email, my mom said she would vote, but can't figure out how to send the exact link. I promise she won't spam you!!

Night all

just getting in from the movies.

Terry - The daytime is not the hard time, it is the nights that when I start thinking. I got in late so I didn't finish family court stuff, I'll do it in the morning. I just can't do it at night when I'm already sad.

I am sad now but exhausted so I hope I sleep

thanks all

xoxoxo

Morning Girls. I hope everyone has a great day. I'm off to work.

Good morning~

Have a great day ladies.

Good morning, Violets.

Ethan arrived a half hour early this morning so it's going to be a long day till 5 p.m. Then first choir rehearsal of the season. It can't be possible that the summer is just about over.

Everyone have a great day and be good to yourselves.

HI everyone

going to be nice today and then I think Fall is going to be here. I'm going to close the pool by LABOR Day, which is sad, but I'm not going to pay to keep it running, only going to be 73 by next week. so sad, I'm just getting into the water aerobics thing.

nm going on here today, think I'm just going to enjoy my last couple days of pool.

Have a great day

Morning girls~

So sad to hear about Ted Kennedy's passing...I actually cried a few real tears (must be my TOM). He was a true humanitarian...and he will be missed

Susanne is getting ready to go to her moms for a few days in Phoenix. I am working full time now, and I encourage her to spend some good time w/ mom. She is LUCKY to have her...and should enjoy these moments!

I am sooo excited! I am driving in my OFFICIAL TRANSCRIPTS w/ my doc. degree posted to them to the district office!!!!! BRING ON THE RAISE!

I also think (still crossing my fingers) that I will get to teach 2 sessions of English Lang. Dev.!!! Right now, I am slated to teach 6th grade self contained; that is Lang. Arts, math and Science/Soc.Studies. BUT...IF I GET MY WAY, I will teach Lang. Dev to two groups instead of having one all day! AND THE BEST PART IS I will get to teach High Point!! High Point is the curriculum I did my entire dissertation on!!! HELLO!!! BRING IT ON! I will let you know this afternoon if it goes my way!

Everyone have a FANFREAKINTASTIC DAY!!!

Jane - and everyone else, if you go back to the post that Laura did on Facebook that has Carson's picture on it and hit the SHARE button it will then put it on your wall and allow all your friends to see it and vote. The link is direct. That's what I did two days ago and all my friends voted.

I am doing good with my workouts. I'm sore but I really like someone pushing me to beyond my limits. It's what I needed all along. I'm having severe sugar withdrawals. Just like a junkie. And I think I'm going into a little bit of a depression. Food was my comfort and my "friend". It made me feel better. Now that I'm watching what I eat and staying off the junky stuff I feel so alone. It's weird but that's what I'm feeling. I was telling Juan last night that I feel so isolated. And nothing has really changed but the eating. I'm sure i'll snap out of it. It's only been 10 days so far.

Everyone have a great day...