Hi all...i am usually a lurker...but i just really need to vent. I have had my surgery two years ago. It was placed wrong and I vomited every day for about a year and a half, until i switched to a new wonderful doctor, who knew how to fix everything. I have felt fantastic since...and thats kinda the problem. I had intially lost 90 pounds (its amazing how easy it was to loose the weight when you are vomiting every day). As soon as i had my surger to reposition, i gained 30 almost right away (which was to be expected-maybe not that much, but some) I am so frusterated. I have not been able to lose any weight since. I am on a strict calorie diet, workout EVERDAY, sometimes twice a day. and I am at a standstill. I have been going in for fills, but it seems like its never enough, and if he does fill it too much...arrgh...pain. I guess i am just tired. I am tired of working out twice a day, i am tired of thinking about food 24/7, how i am going to eat, when, how much. I am exhausted and frusterated. And honestly, i am afraid i am going to wake up tomorrow and be 300 pounds again. I dont have a lot of support close by. I have been to support groups...but honestly, i havent found the right one for me. The last one i went to were a bunch of ladies that would sit around a table and bitch abotu what they could and couldnt eat for 2 hours. I guess i am just writig this because i am tired, frusterated, and everything else. Just when i think i am doing good....something stands in the way. Now, since i have to pay for my own fills ($150 each time)...i have had to not go in as much...i just cant afford it. Anyway...just writing this makes me feel a little better, i guess i just needed to get it out. THanks ya all.

so sorry about all your set backs. it sounds like it's been a long weary road. but you've come this far and hopefully you will have better days ahead.

May I make a WILD suggestion? Drop the "strict calorie diet" (you may not be eating enough, especially considering how much you work out) and try to do the band like my doc says to do...eat only 3 meals a day. Eat whatever your family is eating (or what you want, if you're in that position) but eat Protein first, then veggies, then fruit, and finally grains/pastas etc. Take small bites, chew well, take only 30 minutes to eat, dont' drink 15 min before, during, 15 min after meals...and don't snack. don't count, weigh, etc. Don't worry about fat free or whatever. Just make good choices and eat.

That will remove the obsession and the 24/7 thoughts of food. It will be "natural". I bet you start losing again.

Might you try that?

Thank you so much...I will give that a try. (kind of)..lol.. I am single and live alone...but if i just go ahead and try eating "naturally"...it may work. Thanks for all of your support....i am not going to give up, come to far...and paid to much..lol..to give up now. I have just been feeling down and blah today. Thanks again

I hear you! And let me tell you it is HARD to shed that "diet" mentality. But it works. It's slow (1-2 pounds a week) but it works. It amazes me each week when I get on the scale and have lost AGAIN. Wow! Take care and good luck!

I hear you! And let me tell you it is HARD to shed that "diet" mentality. But it works. It's slow (1-2 pounds a week) but it works. It amazes me each week when I get on the scale and have lost AGAIN. Wow! Take care and good luck!

Me and the monkey are on board with each other. Lose the food obsession and eat naturally, staying away from slider foods (I must remind myself of this, since I have an affection for Pringles new Extreme Dill Pickle Chips!), and you'll get there! Choose healthy, but stop the madness of choosing low-fat, sugar free foods. Those choices actually do more harm than good. I SWEAR I know what I am talking about...

I am with restless. You may want to log what you normally eat and see what the calorie count is. You may find it is way too low for you activity level. Your body may think you are starving it. I consume 1200-1500 calories per day. I eat what I want, for the most part, and I am almost consistently losing 1-2 lbs per week. I have lost 77 lbs in 8 months. I even ate pizza yesterday. The difference is, I ate 1 piece instead of 3! I still drink my venti non fat mochas and my coffee. I enjoy my food.

Restless monkey I agree with you completely. I always enjoy reading your posts and I plan on taking the same approach!

The way I see it is that I did not get to this weight overnight and so it will not come off overnight.

I want to drop the word diet from my vocabulary and just focus on portion control and exercise.

I just don't believe that there has to be foods that are off limit (unless my band says so)

I will be banded in 9 days!

Thanks again everybody...you all have great advice and i sooo appreciate the support. Some days, i guess i just get down...its exhausting. And, it is especially hard when i feel those old habits creeping back in. I got to just stick to the basics...and let the band help me. Thanks sooo much.