I know in my head, logically i have no reason to be frustrated. im off to a good start indeed. but the last month has been such a battle for me. i posted previous about not losing for a week and a half, then i lost some, then the same thing. i lost three pounds and now nothing. this week it showing i gained a pound. im walking on my treadmill for 20 min i know not a long time but i have nerve damage in my legs, but i do faster, slower running intervals to try and mix things up.. next week im cleared to start lifting weights. I am just so frustrated because its the excitement of getting skinnier and being more healthy and im still at such an unhealthy weight and im so tired of being fat. I feel like im going to meet my goals and when i go to christma this year. no one is going to really tell my weight loss at all. and i was so excited about that. i wanted to get close to 200 by then but i dont think its gonna happen. I go in for my first fill next wednesday so im hoping that will change things. This morning i was crying and i know im being so illogical about the whole thing I know its a slow process its just such a let down to lose so quick and then suddenly have that stop. last weekend i did have a couple hiccups i know could be slowing me down too and my body could be adjusting from that. such as i had a taco from taco bell. a little bit of movie popcorn.. and sat night went out with the girls and have some wine.
I guess my mindset of treating myself was all an illusion and i dont know if it has anything to do with it at all because im been so damn good. anyway i just needed to vent because this website is my support. im so scared the band has stopped working. i think that is my biggest fear. hey tho one thing i was proud of. is when i was exercising yesterday i was able to jog a little bit. i can tell im getting into better shape which is always a good thing right? that is my main gail so there is a positive.
I know in my head, logically i have no reason to be frustrated. im off to a good start indeed. but the last month has been such a battle for me. i posted previous about not losing for a week and a half, then i lost some, then the same thing. i lost three pounds and now nothing. this week it showing i gained a pound. im walking on my treadmill for 20 min i know not a long time but i have nerve damage in my legs, but i do faster, slower running intervals to try and mix things up.. next week im cleared to start lifting weights. I am just so frustrated because its the excitement of getting skinnier and being more healthy and im still at such an unhealthy weight and im so tired of being fat. I feel like im going to meet my goals and when i go to christma this year. no one is going to really tell my weight loss at all. and i was so excited about that. i wanted to get close to 200 by then but i dont think its gonna happen. I go in for my first fill next wednesday so im hoping that will change things. This morning i was crying and i know im being so illogical about the whole thing I know its a slow process its just such a let down to lose so quick and then suddenly have that stop. last weekend i did have a couple hiccups i know could be slowing me down too and my body could be adjusting from that. such as i had a taco from taco bell. a little bit of movie popcorn.. and sat night went out with the girls and have some wine.
I guess my mindset of treating myself was all an illusion and i dont know if it has anything to do with it at all because im been so damn good. anyway i just needed to vent because this website is my support. im so scared the band has stopped working. i think that is my biggest fear. hey tho one thing i was proud of. is when i was exercising yesterday i was able to jog a little bit. i can tell im getting into better shape which is always a good thing right? that is my main gail so there is a positive.