I have been so positive. My doctor told me that I would go through some psychological issues. I believed him, I really did.

I went through the liquid stage with minor annoyance for almost four weeks. I sailed through the mushies. I missed real food horribly but I was fine.

I got my first fill on thursday and I have cried, no sobbed, everyday since. It's been dramatic.

I didn't eat anything before the fill I was too nervous. I received my fill at 2, at 4 the next day when I got off work as soon as I got home I picked a huge fight with my partner. I never act like that. When she didn't rise to my bitching, nagging, and accusations I went through our apartment raging and even threw some nail clippers at the wall. I never act like this ever.

Then I took a long bath and got out feeling contrite and refreshed. I apologized and then two seconds later started crying and crying.

Last night I cried and cried until I thought I was going to lose my mind because my friends cancelled on plans we had for two weeks. These particular friends always cancel so it was nothing unusual about it. But it effected me terribly. Then my partner and I went to my bestfriends play which was hilarous and wonderful. I left happy and giddy and that is how I went to bed.

I woke up this morning and cried about my grandmothers stroke, and my grandfathers cancer and when that passed, I went to watch some tv. One the news there was this adorable senior citizens singing group "young at heart" they sang current hits and other hits from the 60's. It was touching. Then this guy with cancer who had a beautiful deep strong voice sang this slow sad song with his oxegen on and I started sobbing again.

I feel like I am going through puberty again. I am not an unhappy person. I am usually very positive, very happy, and strong. I can't stop crying. In fact I am tearing up while writing this.

How could someones whose life is going exactly the way they want it too be so sad? I have nothing to complain about. My life is as perfect right now as it could be yet I can't stop these tears. I feel ungrateful and embarrassed. I know I have nothing to cry about but the tears won't stop. I feel like my heart is broken but nothing broke it.

What can I do to stop these senseless emotions? What can I do to be myself? I know that I need a new way to fight my stress, but I don't realize I am stressed until it overpowers me like this. I guess I am used to pushing it down and before I would freak out I would eat it all away.

I am not crying for help, I am not crying from happiness, I not crying for anything. I am just crying. I just can not stop crying.

I was depressed and moody for about the first 6 weeks after surgery. Like everyone above has said, it will pass. My doc wanted to put me on antidepressants, but I declined. I wanted to work it out myself, but promised that if it went past two months I would agree to take them. BUT, I have new physical anomolies that are definately hormonal and I'm pretty upset about them. I've always had beautiful skin and been very proud of it. I took meticulous care of it. The hormone changes are ravaging my skin. I now have bumps and discolorations on my face that I've never had before. The texture of my facial skin is like sandpaper. I've started to grow fine, blond hair on my upper lip and have fine blond sideburns. I had a partial hysterechtomy about 4 years ago, so I still have my ovaries. I used to have terrible ovarian cysts that would be very painful at certain times of the month. Now they don't bother me at all. So that's nice, but it also tells me my hormones are NOT the same. My hair is also falling out. Not bad, just thinning. My OB/GYN is a putz. I asked him about all this when I was there for my annual and mammogram, and he basically blew me off. Didn't even order a test of my homone levels. (I guess I need to find a new one) I sure would like to know so I can begin some type of natural therapy with soy, herbs, evening primrose oil or something. I have no idea how much would be needed. Any naturopaths out there?

I hope you can fin a OB/GYN dr that works better for you. I hate finding new Dr.'s. hate it hate it hate it

Go for a female doc. I've always had better luck with female doctors.

Thank goodness I found this thread...I feel like I am postpartum right now with all these mood swings. Glad I'm not alone.

So proud of you ......

Thank goodness I found this thread...I feel like I am postpartum right now with all these mood swings. Glad I'm not alone.

It gets better. So far I am fine. How are you doing today?

I'm doing a bit better, thanks..it's so weird, I feel like everything is such a bigger deal then it is, kwim? I felt terrible last night, like bawling all night.

How are you doing? I looked at your pics, btw, your so pretty!!

I have been thinking about you lately Ready, how have you been feeling? have things started leveling out?

For the most part- I have smoked a few ciggerettes which I quit months and months before the surgery but it's nothing compared to that one particular week of my fill, but I am still kinda up and down.

The up is more than down though. I entered my first art show in years and years. Trying to find new outlets for stress. Talking back a little more to people, but only when they need it. :biggrin:

Thank you all.

I too went through those emotions after surgery. But I was also having my period at the same time as my surgery. Which was bad. However, that was a few months ago for me now. And let me just say that it does pass. Right now, I'm the best I have been in a long time. Which is saying something considering my history.

When I start to feel too crazy I go work out. My anger seems to make me skinnier :thumbup: