Come on, please??? I'm begging you! I don't want to feel like the only one who has screwed up already!

1. Pre-op diet? What's a pre-op diet? (That was my first big mistake.)

2. In the last 48 hours I have eaten a whole baked potato, skin and all. Two Pintos and cheese from Taco Bell and a chalupa. Yes, SHELL AND ALL!!! God help me I didn't even feel stretched or bloated or anything. I'M SUPPOSED TO STILL BE ON liquids UNTIL THE ELEVENTH!!!!!:thumbdown::mad2::bored:

I vowed to go back on all liquids today but my hunger is back full force and I am not a happy camper. I know the purpose of liquids is healing so I am forcing myself to comply now but I can't believe I'm going to have to white knuckle this for months and months. I kept praying I would be one who said, "I just never feel hungry."

Definately don't have to worry about TOM here. I had a complete hysterectomy about 6 years ago. Though I do sometimes wonder if there isn't a small hormone change that still cycles monthly.

I'm feeling better today since yesterday was okay and today, so far, I'm doing okay. Fill is on Wednesday and I can't wait now. Glad i didn't get it before my anniversary though. It was really nice to be able to eat dinner out.

You sound exactly like me! I am in the UK and really struggling to get a lap band. I have been refered to a consultant who's only advice so far is "eat carrot sticks" my dietician has said I need counselling for my behaviour issues. I totally agree. But again this is impossible to get on the NHS. I have been told I can only apply for a band once I have been on diet pills for a year but I dont want to take diet pills. I am at a loss as to what to do next.???????

You need to come to the states!!! What a bunch of hoooey!

Irene, That is a great point about TOM. I will have to keep that in mind.

OK my fellow Februarians...someone tell me WHY?? WHY did I slip (make that fall) tonight?? I have been fine (only minor slip a few weeks ago)...I am happy, things are going well, and tonight I sit with DH to watch a rare TV show. He's mowing down peanuts, I figure a few won''t hurt, they're in the shell - it will take me a while to shell them and i won't eat many. HAH!

1 hour later I have a bowl of shells, a sore gut, and absolute disgust with myself. I have NO way to know how many nuts I scarfed down, and to eat them for an hour???

If anyone can figure out a way to really knows what goes on in my head, let me know, because I obviously do not have a clue.

I am disgusted. I am going to bed - I will have a good cry, beat myself up (psychologically) and hope to goodness I can resist tomorrow.

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Tap, don't cry! Peanuts have lots of protein!! You could have binged on something far worse! Don't beat yourself up, just move forward!

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<P>Thanks Karen for giving such positive responses. It really helps to hear good things. You dont know how much I would love to come to the states.</P>

<P>The op privately here would cost at least £7000 so out of my price range.</P>

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I stopped losing weight 2 months ago. I hate myself for it...but my clothes are getting a wee little bit looser. I could be tightning up a little bit. I dont drink much water, have no regular exercise routine, eat ice cream, mickey d's chicken nuggets, and sausage once in a while, but I consume my fattening crap while hiding it from my husband, in absolute shame ...that's how I eat sometimes, actually about half the time. I feel horrible. It's a miracle I'm not actually gaining!!

Please don't give up. It is easy to see you are still wanting to lose more weight. We all know it is really hard. What would you think about not hiding your "eating" from your husband? If you ate your fattening food only when you are with your husband it might help you reduce what you eat a bit. Anyway, I know you are not ready to give up. Keep coming to this thread. It can help you think about your eating more. Take care.

Tina

First off - Congrats! You're 1/3 of the way there. That's fantastic. I think you are experiencing the lovely plateau that most of us have hit. It's really hard to make good choices when they don't seem to be doing much. Also, you can dump the shame now. You've told all of us. Sometimes that's all it takes to get you off the shame spiral.

Do you have a good therapist? Only asking because it's something I'm seriously considering one and I know many who use them. Weight and eating issues for most of us isn't just simply a matter of what we put in our mouths and how often we exercise. There are many issues that cause us to do the things we know will sabotage our successes.

Due to a plateau I've really been fighting hard with feelings of just giving up and feeling like a failure. That has led me to eat in a most unhealthy manner. I think I'm getting a handle on it now and I've got a fill coming up in 3 days but it's still a daily process and sometimes an outright battle.

Biggest thing is to not beat yourself up. Realize that it's not the cookie that you put in your mouth that's defeating you, it's when you just give up and don't even try on the next food choice you make.

Best of luck to you and if you need some support, we're all here ready to lend a helping hand and word of encouragement.

Geez I've been up half the night looking for information on post op screwups. I've not been good at all and need a real kick in the pants. I can't believe - well actually I can - that I've been so intent on challenging the band. I'm only 12 days post op and the story ain't pretty. I stayed on liquids for the first 4-5 days because I felt very full and/or gassy. By day 6, I felt nothing, no limits, and by day 8 then all hell broke loose. Tonight was the worst of all - day 12. Damn holiday - it's all my mother's fault. Just kidding. 2 Chile Rellenos, fajitas, beans, rice, salad, desert, and 3 fiber cookies (just to be healthy) ha ha. I topped it all off by taking a laxative. Yeah, that'll solve the problem! I know I've got to get control of myself. Got to stop bucking the rules. I've been worried sick - only after the fact, of course - that I've stretched my pouch or worse. At least if I'd had some problem getting the food down, or a tummy ache. But no, nothing. Easy as pie. I started hiking again 4 days post op and even went back to the gym today for some upper body work. I guess I thought that gave me license to stray from my 21 day liquid/mushy diet. I really scare myself with the realization that I'm already playing this game with myself. I mean, I'm really serious about losing weight - aren't I? I'm so pissed with myself. *%%##!!! I vow to get back on the wagon tomorrow. Sometimes I really hate myself.

Geez I've been up half the night looking for information on post op screwups. I've not been good at all and need a real kick in the pants. I can't believe - well actually I can - that I've been so intent on challenging the band. I'm only 12 days post op and the story ain't pretty. I stayed on liquids for the first 4-5 days because I felt very full and/or gassy. By day 6, I felt nothing, no limits, and by day 8 then all hell broke loose. Tonight was the worst of all - day 12. Damn holiday - it's all my mother's fault. Just kidding. 2 Chile Rellenos, fajitas, beans, rice, salad, desert, and 3 fiber cookies (just to be healthy) ha ha. I topped it all off by taking a laxative. Yeah, that'll solve the problem! I know I've got to get control of myself. Got to stop bucking the rules. I've been worried sick - only after the fact, of course - that I've stretched my pouch or worse. At least if I'd had some problem getting the food down, or a tummy ache. But no, nothing. Easy as pie. I started hiking again 4 days post op and even went back to the gym today for some upper body work. I guess I thought that gave me license to stray from my 21 day liquid/mushy diet. I really scare myself with the realization that I'm already playing this game with myself. I mean, I'm really serious about losing weight - aren't I? I'm so pissed with myself. *%%##!!! I vow to get back on the wagon tomorrow. Sometimes I really hate myself.

So, it happened and now you need to move on and realize it doesn't have to happen. I was rebellious too after my surgery.. I started eating tuna day 7 when I was suppose to be eating cream soups, but I was wide open and hungry. You have zero restriction right now, so it makes sense. Don't be pissed at yourself anymore.

I'ts weird that moment when you finally get into that mindset of "i'm going to do it"... and there's really nothing anybody can tell you that will make you want to do it, only you can. But when you finally get into that zone, it's wonderful isn't it? You will get to that place, especially when you get those fills.

As I've stated earlier, I'm a firm believer in allowing yourself that naughty snack every now and again, I think by allowing that I can follow a healthier diet overall throughout the week.

Last night for mother's day dinner I had a small portion of grilled chicken and lettuce dipped in hummus... but for dessert I allowed myself 3 bites of a piece of rum cake. Do I feel guilty? No! I want to live a normal life like normal people and normal people usually have a FULL piece of rum cake.

So, get over the guilt from last night and start today.

And again, I don't think there is anything wrong with every now and again having a chile rilleno.. or some dessert.. others might disagree with my theory, but again, I'm consistently losing weight every week.. not a crapload like 5 pounds a week or anything (nor would I want to), but I am losing 2-3 pounds a week.. I don't count my calories.. I don't do some point system.. I stick with Protein.. veggies... some carbs... some naughty stuff every now and again.. and it works for me!

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Thanks coolcrystal. I really appreciate your help. Funny the only thing I'm EVER rebellious about seems to be food. Big surprise. Who knows, if I ever channel my rebellious nature into more meaningful areas, perhaps I'll really be someone to recon with! Best wishes and thanks again.

Nothing wrong at all with treating yourself now and then but come on...

Chile Rellenos, fajitas, beans, rice, salad, desert, and 3 fiber cookies

All this just 12 days after surgery? I hope you didn't rip the stitches right off your stomach from all the digesting it's had to do.

Not trying to be a bitch but you obviously would not have posted all that if you weren't wanting someone to give it you straight.

At any rate, good luck to you...

I love how people who are a week out of surgery are so perfect. Wait until you are in bandster hell before you judge.

Keep in mind that all doctor are different. I'm not going to condone someone eating things they shouldn't be, but some people go home from the hospital eating solids while others are on liquids for weeks.