:eek: hi all, well in five days i will be banded and missing a gall bladder.. thats going well. pre-op diet goes well during the day but at night i'm starved, and not eating the best foods.:frown:

anyway, i have had a couple of bad days at work... working with women sucks, small office (dental) dr/boss not a leader what-so-ever. so i got into with a couple of idiots who i work with about patient stuff... LATER THAT NIGHT,

come home panic attack.. small one but still panic attack.

tonight another if i dont relax, it will spiral to a big one.

i took 5mg valium that my girlie gave me to help me relax.. i'm sure my nerves are showing themselves right now and its hitting me that i'm about to change my life and i still work with biotches... DH is @ work tonight, on his midnight rotations. tomorrow the weather is going to get bad so my hating driving in bad weather will be kicking in... just a mess tonight. feel sorry for me! just kidding, just needed to get my thoughts out before i come unglued.:cool2: never doubting my decesion to band, just having some anxiety right now. like a baseball in my chest. i made an appt for sat to start some antidepressants for mood issues with work and hoopefully get some meds for when i have these attacks instead of getting them on the street. he does not like to prescribe very much.

ANY THOUGHTS WELCOMED..:frown:

:grouphug:NEEDED LOL.

MICHELLE

I've had anxiety with my depression, but have been medicated for several years. Aside from the occasional monthly mood, I'm on a pretty even kiel now. Better living through chemistry, I say! It will help you to find some meds that work, sometimes it takes a few tries to get it right, so be patient. I tried to wean myself off mine a few years ago, and a year later I was a MESS again, and went back on.

I'm not approved or scheduled for LBS yet, but have pretty much made up my mind to do it. I'm almost 44 and so sick of fighting this. I need some help, and I believe this is it. Sorry I cant relate to the pre-op anxiety yet. Posting here has been a good stress reliever for me. I'm excited about my first surgeon appt next Wednesday, and this site is keeping me busy instead of driving my DH nuts! I'm so glad I found this site. I have learned SOOOOO much.

Chill out (try!) and good luck!

Hey Michelle,

This is a good forum to come and "let it all out". Venting is a way to deal with the emotions you are feeling instead of eating away your emotions. Finding different ways to deal with the emotions of life (in addition to meds if you need them) is something you are going to have to work through.

Hang in there...it will get better, bc it always does!