WTH! We're too big to get around in? LOL too funny!

Girlfriends? Don't leave me now.

yay!! finally updated my signature and accomplish my first goal I am offically 178.!!!!!! YAY!!!!!

oK so my weekend was sad because the san diego chargers are not going to the superbowl:( but over all I won on the last two games before this 400dlls so that is good lol .

I need all of your prayers I am going to Chicago for a Week I leave Friday I am excited but at the same token I am scared not because I dont have fun but my last experiences with my trips and my best friend have not been good in the sence lots of things come out in the open and I thinking this will not change but I am happy to spend time with him his dad and his kids will see what happends in that chapter of my life . Also I have an interview on the 30th so wish me lots of luck . when I come back I will be meeting via phone with HR and ask for them to revalue my transfer and hopefully get it .(hopefully) .If not I know new doors will open and I know I feel it deep inside this will be my year.

Thanks for all of your good thoughts for me always.!!

bev-- How are you doing ? Trust me I know how it feels trust me but your a strong a and beautiful woman that will accomplish what you want and good things will come have faith I know I do and your in my prayers.

b000- pls take care of your self !!!!! pls! pls! pls!!

read you soon girls ..

Hey girls....

I am so sorry I have been a.w.o.l. I am having a very very tough time with life in general lately.

Brandi--I am so sorry hun. I love you, if that helps any, we all do. I hope things get better for you.

Claud--Call me please so we can talk! I want to know everything that is going on.

I am sorry if I have missed anyone else with stuff going on, I am not adjusted to this new layout blah...

I am having a really hard time girls, I need prayers. I am seriously to the point of packing up my kids and running away. I wouldn't tell anyone where I went, it is the only way I could ever get away. But what then? I will post on yahoo when I can. Life has spun so out of control for me. I thought being skinny would fix my marriage, it made it worse. :rolleyes2:

And now I can't stop myself from obsessing about my weight. I need help, but I can't get it. He would know.....

oh boo boo- I wish I could help you! I'm guessing the giving the marriage one more chance didn't work out. Are your girls doing ok with everything?

Praying for you Boo! It must be so difficult! Take care of yourself and the girls. It will be very hard to live a life on the run, if there is any possible way to get him to counselling with you I would try. Take care! Jill

Boo, what can we do? Anything?

I'm here if you need to talk or vent or anything. I no longer have close contacts with Johnny Two Fingers or Frankie Sticks, so I can't help you that way, but I'd be happy to lend an ear and try to come up with something!

It sucks that life isn't fixed because we lose weight, it seems it just lifts the veil that was covering other things. Dammit! Why? Why can't it make things better?????

Take Care, you!

Boo - try to find someone to talk to - maybe a minister? Can you get away while at work and go see a therapist? This isn't abnormal - the whole lose weight and new problems thing - they warned us about it in the shrink visit pre-op. Obsessing over your weight may become a problem in itself. Try try try to go see someone who specializes in weightloss therapy. We love ya and you are in my prayers.

Jill you nut - pureed hot dog? LOL too funny! I guess my worst was in the liquid phase when I chewed up a dorito and then spit it out. Although I do that every now and then, think I want something and then when I get it chewed up realize it isn't worth the calories.

Claud - I was bummed about the chargers too

Jill, when I was on mushies, it was the Fourth of July...I pureed not only a hot dog, but baked beans and cole slaw, too! And I made a watermelon granita...

I totally understand.

NAT GIRL!!! So good to see you! you're right about the guy thing...its just so crazy!

Claud...good luck on your trip to Chicago! I hope it goes well!

Jill....congrats on the scale moving! Just be careful if you're too tight...

I have worked out 2x already this week! I'm really enjoying getting into the workout routine again and hope that I can keep it up for a while! I'd like to lose 30 pounds by the summer!

SO....I GOT A JOB! Granted, its only a 90 day contract job for now, but it could lead to a perm position, so I'm happy! I'll have money and benefits again starting monday and the commute is good and it'll be a great project to work on! Woo hoo! I'm so excited!

Hope you lovely ladies are doing well and keeping warm!!

VA - yay! I'm happy you got a job - and I'm happy its a good commute! Anything more on the man front?

Bman - Hon, whats up? Fill us in.

Boo - hang in there baby, we're all praying for you.

Claud - have fun in chicago - guard your heart sweetie, just remember you've been hurt before, so guard your heart.

Sweet - hows the knee? Does the swinging hurt it?

Ok - my big big big news - ok its not actually news yet - more of I'm hoping and praying. I was talking to my dil last night, she's a week late!!!!!!!!! I might be a gramma!!!! I could barely sleep last night, I was so excited, and dh didn't sleep well either so I bet he was dreaming about that grandbaby too! They'll be married 2 years in July, and had said they were going to wait until August to try to get pregnant, so we were :biggrin: but its the way they are, they plan EVERYTHING! Then they told us that her sister was planning to get pg the same summer and its always all about her so they didn't want to get pg at the same time. So I crossed my fingers and on Christmas day my dil told me that maybe we'll have a suprise next Christmas - but she didn't go into it anymore. So I've been thinking maybe they're moving up the plans, and then last night when she was telling me all this she said she went off the pill in Dec. so now she's not sure if she's really pregnant or just messed up from going off the pill. Either way, whether she is or not at least I have the hope that it'll be soon. I'm so fricking excited!!

Back to band related issues. VA it does feel good to get back into the exercise mode again. I've been walking everyday now that I got back into it, sometimes even 2 walks. It really does a body good.

WOW STEPH!!! I'll keep my fingers crossed for you that your DD is Peggers!!! :biggrin:

Not much new on the man front, although I did talk to the friend that encouraged him to make a move on me when we went on our ski weekend a few weeks ago, so she's going to talk to him tomorrow night and see if she can encourage him to move forward and forget the past and see if we can be more than friends! Keep your fingers crossed!!

I got my 2nd workout for the week in last night...met my guy and another guy friend at the gym and ended up working out longer than I expected to! (Nothing like trying to impress a guy at the gym LOL)!

My scale isn't budging though, but I'm guessing it's b/c I'm actually getting some muscle, so I'll just hope that in the next week or so I'll see a nice big drop one day!

B'Man...how are you doing girl?? Any news on the job front? Did they give you any severance?

Claud and Steph...your Chargers played a good game, but I hate to say it but it's gonna be PATRIOTS all the Way!!! :cool2:

Hope you all have a great day!!! Thanks to all of you for being such a great source of support...not just for the weight loss, but for all of lifes challenges!!!! Love you all!

Hey Ladies! Long time! How has everyone been? I'm back.. again.. i'll try to stay around this time.

Sassy

Hey Y'all!

So I am really tired and about to get in bed here, but wanted to check in.

Where is B'man? I'm worried about her!

jill - I pureed some taco meat to have a taco whip. It was soooooo gross. And another time I ate pudding because I desperately wanted something sweet. You don't understand. I HATE PUDDING!

Steph - I'll keep my fingers crossed! If DIL is preggers, what will you have the grandbabies call you? Nanny? Nana? Granny? *giggling*

sweets - how's the knee?

BooBoo - hold on, sis. Or maybe you do need to leave. Maybe that's what's best for you. Life is too short to be unhappy.

I had my 1 year check up last week. I have officially lost 87 lbs since my first appt. My surgeon is very happy for me - he said that I did extremely well my first year with the lapband. I am so proud of myself! I weighed in at 212.5, and feel like I've lost since then. I got a 0.5 cc fill at my appt. I've got a solid 10cc in my band, so he's reluctant to add too much more, as we max out at 11 with this band. He also got me on the first poke!

Love you all - things are so so so hectic. I'll find my way to Yahoo and fill you in, as it's a lot of work stuff.

Nathalie

Wow...SASSY AND NAT!!! Welcome back Girls!! sooo glad to see you and hear that you're doing well!! :frown:

Keep posting and catch us all up!

Va- Congrats on the job! Good for you. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you on the man thing. I hope if he does come around, he treats you like a princess!

sassy welcome back! - now stick around this time girlie! How has everything been. I've seen you've done well on weight loss.

STeph!- I"m so excited for you! You are going to be a great grandma! i'm jealous, I wish that our Moms and Dads were excited for their grandchildren. They couldn't care less! Seriously.

nat- 87lbs! my goodness. YOu go girl. That's great.

bman- Where are you sweetie? Are you ok?

Boo- are you doing ok?

My knee is still bad! I went to run yesterday made it about 3/4 of a mile and then sharp pains. uggh. it fell fine all weekend too, so i thought it was better. It started hurting in Rome. Then I did the bike which doesn't hurt the knee at all and the crosstrianer machine. So I burned about 300 calories in 40 minutes, not nearly as good as my runs but ok.

my fill is not working. I hope my band is good. i at 1300 calories yesterday and went to bed starving. it was so tiny on the fluouro machine! so so tiny. The stuff i swallow that shows up, took about 6 seconds to start going through the tiny hole. The dr. was worried i was too tight. So this morning i ate an entire piece of toast. and that was about 30 mins ago and I'm starving, the stomach is rumbling, the bread went down fine. I hope I don't have a leak!