Well, it is 5:30 am and I could not sleep anymore. My surgery was pushed back an hour to 11. Not a big deal.

I have been saying all along that I was not nervous. Well last night:notagree, the nerves kicked in. I have been second guessing the decision all night. I have been nervous about the pain. Feeling like I am breaking up with my best friend -- food. I would assume this is kinda normal.:omg:

Well now I am refocused and ready to make the changes to live a healthy life. I just keep rminding my self that at my current weight I have sleep apnea, close to being on blood pressure pills, borderline diabetic, always tired. These are the reasons I need to chage my lifestyle. I want to see my 5 beautiful daughters grow up!

I am still nervous, but very determined. A couple weeks of pain is worth a second start.

I do have a horrible headache from not eating:hungry:, so I am sure this is palying into my mind games that have been going on.

Wish me luck!

I wil send a message on Saturday when i get home.:clap2:

It's only normal to be feeling all the emotions you are feeling right now. Good Luck to you, and we'll see you in bandland!

RonKat:

I'm sure things will be fine. I think the pain is very manageable. I didn't take anything more than liquid tylenol after the first night.

I'm sure I'll be jealous of you soon because I am guessing by your name that you are a man, and men lose so fast!

Take care, and get moving soon after surgery to get rid of the gas.

Sue

Ronkat - your day is finally here . . .and you will do GREAT! 5 DAUGHTERS? OMG - you BETTER get better to help out your poor wife! SHE need some support - what a fun family this must be! Let us know how you are doing!

Chris