my head would feel banded as well.

not the case at all.

received some pretty devastating news this afternoon, first thing i did when i left, hershey's big bar with almonds. whole bar gone in under 10 minutes. :rolleyes

didnt make things better, i knew it wouldnt, but i ate it anyway... why? why cant i get it thru my thick head that it just isnt worth it?

intentionally ate a crappy dinner as well. thinking 'i deserve this'.. all it made me feel was the carb-induced coma.

im sad, im depressed and im alone. dh is out of town for 9 days... dd has no clue what is going on except 'mamas sad' ...

only good thing - we didnt go grocery shopping this weekend. no garbage in the house.

We are all human. These are not 'bad times'...they're excusable momentary lapses of reason.

ooooh! What she said!!!

girl, that's GOOD, I'm gonna be borrowin' that!

losingjusme, don't be too hard on yourself. food was your (OUR!) comfort for SO many years. No reason to think it wouldn't be the first place we still turn. I'm gonna pray for you. I know what its like to go through bad stuff -- ESPECIALLY when DH is away, isn't that always when the feces hits the fan?

candy -- Girl, I feel ya! I had my surgery rescheduled TWICE, too. First time I was prepped and about to go into OR, second time I was in OR and OUT, I can't begin to tell you how I felt when they woke me up and sent me home withOUT a band!!! It'll happen, just be patient.

Oh Nana, I would have REALLY been upset if I had gone through that! I would have probably had to find a new surgeon, because the one I have would have dumped me for the fussing out I would have given him!!! I'm so glad I didn't get that far. At least they DID call me before I did the bowel prep!

I guess I handled it okay. (I tho't I was REALLY upset.) But when I finally quit crying long enough and called the surgeon's office after the SECOND date to see when we would reschedule and to insist that I never lay eyes on that Anest. again, they seemed genuinely shocked to hear from me.

She said the Doctor had told them about it and had guessed I would blow the whole thing off. I was like, "Oh Hell No! I didn't get this close to quit NOW!"

LOL

You and I sound a lot alike - we have come too far to back away now!

Its ok to melt once in awhile. It will not destroy everything you have done for yourself this far. Just start al over again tommorrow. WE all have the tendancy to self medicate when life sucks. Just don't let it happen very often and you will be fine