I haven't posted for months. I haven't even lurked. I lost 60 pounds my first year and that was it. I went for 6 months without losing an ounce and now I'm starting to gain.

I've been unfilled and filled again. I've gone through bouts of PB's that I thought would never end. I still do several times a week. I just feel like i've failed and I went through so much to get here.

Am I the only one having this hard a time? Although I haven't been on for a long time, I remember everyone seemingly doing so well. I was even ashamed of my 60 pounds, like it just wasn't enough.

Don't get me wrong. I am so grateful for what I lost, I was able to put away my cane. I'm not on constant pain meds anymore. But I just wish I could get a kick start or something and get back on track.

Well, now that that's off my chest, maybe I'll lurk a little.

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You are all so wonderful. I really missed having people to talk to that really understand what I'm going through. I don't personally know any other bandsters. And to be honest, when I left the board, most of the people that were posting only spoke to each other and didn't support someone who only occassionally posted. You guys have made me feel good about coming back and you have made me feel good about starting over again.

Thank you so much.