Hi All!

I've been thinking about this for 3 yrs. I finally cleared all the tests (for the last 2 yrs, i was unable to do it because i had bowel problems. We now know i have an autoimmune disorder). Now, i put my deposit down and have a date (one month out).

I came to this site to find people like me. People who can understand what i'm going through. I know there are a lot of you out there who have been through this!

I'm a 40 yr old mom of 3. I'm so scared that me not being able to control my weight has lead to the surgery and now im putting myself at risk. Negativity begets negativity - so i desperately want to get to that positive place where i don't go online to read about blood clots, horror stories! GOsh, not to mention friends & doctors who think i'm nutz.

Have any of you felt like this? Should i go to a therapist? Do yoga? Find local support groups?

Thank you for listening to me. Thank you to whoever responds. I appreciate you!

It has become so funny to me to think that I am not scared about this surgery. I am not even really sure why. I am the type of person who is afraid of everything and always thinks about the worst scenario possible instead of the best. But when I think about my surgery I have no fears about the procedure. I have studied and read up about the procedure and what it entails. I know that I can be committed to the after surgery lifestyle. I just feel like I cannot keep feeling tired and wore out every day when I wake up before I have even done anything. I am putting a lot of hope into this surgery that it will change me life for the better and I am sure that hope is what keeps me from being scared. I think you should go to therapy if you believe it will benefit you. Sometimes talking through your issues with an impartial stranger really helps. I also think yoga is an amazing idea. Yoga is something I have always wanted to do but felt like it would be to uncomfortable for me to do. so I am looking forward to trying it after surgery. Good luck on your journey.