Okay, so this is an update on me in a nutshell…

I had taken a short break from college, but now I am going back.

I had moved back to Corpus for about 3 months with a sorority sister, but she ended up being a, well, a bitch and because my name wasn’t on the lease, and I stuck to my responsibilities instead of partying all the time, she kicked me out the day after I paid rent on grounds that were completely false, however I don’t have a leg to stand on in them. I have a boyfriend that Ive been dating for about 2 months that I have had hell with, however he and I are both working on our lives right now. I am back in my hometown trying to get a full-time job and goto school as well as get back in the Theatre. He is in rehab for alcoholism. I asked him to go. He is a great guy, but I cant be with someone that I cant trust with money. Atleast if he bought crap we would have something to show for it. I love him so much, and he is freakishly in love with me, but unless he straightens up his act, I can not be with him. Im diagnosed as pre-bipolar or bipolarish and Im taking trazadone and abilify to help manage that. Im not happy about being home, but its better than being homeless in <?xml:namespace prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" /><st1:City w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Corpus Christi</st1:place></st1:City>. I actually have a positive outlook right now, which is rare as many of you may know. Im in debt up to my ears, but with the right job I can fix that in a few months. I need a new car and new cellphone, but since I lived a homeless life in Corpus (thanks to my wonderful roomie), and lived very poor because my boyfriend was a bartender/busboy and I was a hostess at a restaurant, we couldn’t afford much after helping our friend that we were staying with out with rent. Ive never lived that way before, it really opened my eyes. Ive almost completely quit drinking myself btw. I finally saw how much money I was wasting just tipping the bartender for free drinks! I still enjoy a couple of drinks every now and then, but as for the every night party I would rather not. As for events coming up……..Im going to school to get my paralegal certificate and Im going to Substitute teach at the schools here until I get a fulltime job. Well that’s my update……….Im open to questions, I know it is kind of brief for my writing lol!

Im a single parent I caught my boyfriend cheating on me this weekend. Hes been sleeping and dating another girl for 3 weeks! I cant believe all of this is happening to me! WHY!? Why me?? Im not mentally stable enough for this!!!!!!! I just want to lock myself in my room for a month! I dont like to feel hate, but I HATE him so much for lying to me about LOVE! You guys know that I dont date seriously, I date around and see guys not get hooked on just one. And he screwed me over. Second time in my life, two times in a row! There wont be another...

Oh dear.. another reason to keep that rascal wrapped!

Hope you sort it all out.

Jodie,

I am so sorry to hear that this happened. However, it's much better now than if you were to be married or even just living together and learn afterwards. Believe me, it's no fun to be divorced, from a cheating husband, with a baby in your early twenties. I know because I was.

This would be a great time to put concerns about guys, including the cheating father of the baby, on the back burner and concentrate on your baby & your mental and emotional wellbeing. I know it's hard not to obsess about the situation when you've been wronged but try to focus on what's important to you right now and what your priorities have to be. Parenting classes, a job, prenatal care and psychiatric counselling are all things that have top priority in your life at present and should keep you busy enough that thoughts about the bum may only be in passing!! What a great benefit, huh??!!!

As far as why this happened to you...Honey, this happens ALL the time to people of all ages from all walks of life, men and women alike. Your situation certainly is not unique by any stretch.

Hang in there!!! If depression or mood swings are getting to you, get help immediately!!! Please!! You don't need this on top of everything else.

Also, if you like to read, go to your public library and check out a bunch of books on pregnancy and childbirth. They will not only be educational but maybe it could help keep your mind on the positive. It's so interesting, too, to see where you are at a given time in your baby's development.

Keep writing to us and let us know how you're doing. Take care now.

Ive decided, now that Ive gotten out all my anger and frustration, that Im going to show him unconditional love. No that doesnt mean I will ever be with him again. But he doesnt know what love is, and Im going to show him that. I want him to know. Because I want it to break his heart everytime her thinks about what he just gave up.

LOL! Wanting to break his heart is not showing unconditional love....It's revenge! No doubt you have every emotion in the book in the wake of a break up. But concentrating either love or revenge on him is focusing on him. You and the baby deserve your energy instead.

They say that people connect based on having the same level of emotional maturity. So the more you focus on your own well being, the more likely you are to attract a guy who is more mature.

Who knows. Right now he just doesn't deserve your focus in any way...other than perhaps paying half the baby bills.......

Hey Jodie...How's pregnant life treating you? Hope all is well.

Im doing good actually...but for some reason I feel like Im addicted to sleep...I dont feel sad or mad anymore about the situation, I actually I want to get things done that need to get done, but I just cant stay awake to do them. Its like ive suddenly gotten narcolepsy (sp?)....Its soooo weird. I know I dont have that lol ofcourse, but idk what is going on...I told my Dr. and she put me on a small dosage of prozac for the night time, which does help a little, and helped a lot in the beginning, but now it seems like it doesnt work as well anymore (as far as the fatigue, otherwise it does help).

It's tough between hormone changes...your body wanting to only expend energy to grow a baby...not having your regular meds.... From what I know about Prozac, sometimes the dose has to be built up until it's at the best dose. Well, whatever your Dr. says, this is me giving you a huge hug, mama-to-be.

It would be my guess that by the middle of your second trimester this will just be a memory. I think I slept away all of my first trimesters!!! Better than puking them away IMHO!!!!!

Hang in there!!! You have the double whammy---no 2 bands act just alike, and can be finicky, and no 2 pregnant women act alike, and can be even more finisky!!! But you WILL survive it!!!

Kat

yeah Im super excited...the fatigue does seem to get better, but some days its just horrible!!!! Im due on Cinco de Mayo and I think thats so cute lol!