I am having my surgery on March 28th , and am so scared of all the unknown of failing yet again. But I know I need this for my health and happiness.

Today I got another reason, a friend of mine invited my kids to a play date with some of her other friends n their kids and the first think I thought about was how big I am and what they will think of me. I have never been a person to care what others think of me but in the last two years I have put on so much weight, I don't want to see anyone.

I guess am just feeling down and wish I had done this a long time ago, maybe today I wouldn't be feel so bad about myself....

I remember growing up with a mother who tipped the scales at well over 300lbs.

and ya know what?

I NEVER, EVER--NOT ONCE-NEVER wanted her not to come to one of my school functions. When we had concert or an assembly and I looked up and saw my mom in the crowd, my heart would sing with happiness. She was MOM. --and she came to school just for ME!!!!

Chin up, my friend. Are you going to the play date, just to meet new people or are you going to stay involved in your children's' lives, and maybe meet their parents who are there for the same reason?? Give other parents the benefit of the doubt.

Go and have fun!!! You got this!!!!

@@Valentina thank you so much, you are so right my kids happiness come before anything else. And now that I am finally getting my life back on track I can find some self happiness too.

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@@Valentina thank you so much, you are so right my kids happiness come before anything else. And now that I am finally getting my life back on track I can find some self happiness too.

Watch, really watch your children's faces whenever they look at you whenever you're "out and about". You'll know what I mean.

Let us know how the play date goes. Yes, I'm nosy, but that's because I care

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