When things are rough, and we have bad days, I want to have reminders of what I am working for. This is a shallow thing but I bought myself a cute outfit in my goal size today. Had my surgery monday, and I know it will be a long time until I fit in it, but I am sure before long I will be able to put it on and say, "I did it" and (holy s#!t, I can't believe I can wear this)

I know the pounds will go away and there will be many other non scale victories that will happen along the way. What things are getting you through the hard days?

I bought some PJs around Christmas in the biggest size they had and that is my first goal. They are Wonder Woman with a cape!! They are a size 16. I have not been in a 16 since I was a freshman in Highschool.

Most immaediately, I'm looking forward to the end of the pre-op required testing phase of this journey. Second appointment with my surgeon is on Tuesday.

Postop, I'm looking forward to wearing a white shirt or tee without feeling like a headlamp!

I am looking forward to the day I can take a picture and not crop my body out before I post it on social media. ???? For the past five years I've only posted head shots of myself.

Oh man, so many things....

• wearing riding boots. I carry most of my weight in my legs and have never found boots that will zip. I cannot wait to wear a pair!
• wearing skinny jeans - see above. I've never found a pair that looked good or fit me right.
• getting outside with my kids this summer and running, hiking, doing gymnastics. My daughter is a gymnast and i can still manage cartwheels and handstands. So fun
• Being able to wear tank tops and possibly shorts without feeling horrible?! I know I will have loose skin, but I will take it.
• Going zip lining. I've always exceeded the weight limit, lol.

Zip lining is on my list for this summer too!

Not being so sad and unhappy al the time.

I have been to heavy to horse back ride - literally too heavy for the horses ????. It's something I want to do with my kids.

Also bike riding with my family. Going skiing ( though I'm terrible at it - heavy or not ????)

Not being tired all the time. A few days after I started the liver shrinking diet I'm not half as tired already so I've got that one started already! ????

Fitting into the airplane seats more comfortably.

I bought some PJs around Christmas in the biggest size they had and that is my first goal. They are Wonder Woman with a cape!! They are a size 16. I have not been in a 16 since I was a freshman in Highschool.

My mom bought me some ninja turtle ones.

I can't wait to go shopping when I get to a size 12 or 14!! I'm in a 20 from a 22 so that seems so far away but hey I need those stretch goals right?!

Looking forward to being so much healthier but most of all to see the look on my ex husbands face who left me for a thinner woman!

I'm looking forward to feeling normal size around my friends, for my husband to be able to pick me up with ease, and to stop feeling embarrassed about myself.