I think I've lost enough weight that I have less sleep apnea but now I'm having crazy dreams. Last night I dreamed that my niece was icing a mountain of chocolate cakes with chocolate icing and I was eating a chocolate cupcake. I woke up upset because I thought I really had eaten a cupcake and I was so disappointed in myself. Another dream featured a Chinese buffet and a plate of fried rice. I hope these food dreams end soon.

A friend of mine who is a therapist told me, when I mentioned dreaming about food, that they are "user" dreams. He said many times alcohol or drug abusers dream about using when they are trying not to, people who have food addictions dream about eating. My dreams were very vivid but stopped after about a month.

I also had a couple of similar dreams, but there seemed to be more fear to them than fantasy.

Our minds are a little twisted and it sometimes takes a huge step such as surgery to realize how disturbed our relationship with food really is.

The first few weeks I kept having this scary dream that I forgot I had the surgery and ate potato chips. Weird because I really hardly ever eat potato chips. I don't have weird dreams any more about food.

~LA