Surgery is in one month and my nerves are at their highest.

-Do I really need surgery --- (YES, maybe... i dunno)

-Do I really want surgery --- (YES, maybe... i dunno)

-Am I prepared --- YES

but my nerves are up and down and left and right and twisted all inbetween.

I think I am worried the most is, will there even be a change?

Being self critical I don't know what people current see me as or if they will even notice a difference.

I am 5' 9-1/2" with a BMI of about 33-34.

I dont know what to expect to loose.

I am nervous about the pause of weight loss and whether it will come and go.

I have done my research the past year and been digging into it even more so the past 3 months.

Now that I am down to 36 days pre-op... I am scared.

Is this feeling normal? I am sure it is.

I have told my partner how I feel and he is so supportive but lets face it, women are always their worst critic.

The feelings are perfectly normal. I keep waiting for the loss to stop. I probably won't believe it until I am at goal. Sounds like you are ready that it is just the waiting to get going...you will do great!

Hang in there and soon you will be on the other side and losing those pounds! Don't worry if others notice so much as you will see it and you will feel so much better!