I find myself loathe to admit this out-loud or put it in writing or whatever, but here goes:

The thought that runs through my mind when I PB is "good, that's fewer calories in me."

I don't often PB from eating too much - I do, however, PB from eating too fast regularly. I PB really easily, I can just kind of flex my esophogus (I don't know how else to describe it) and it just slowly slides back out. Rarely do I actually PB with any force like throwing up. And I don't think I really PB intentionally, like I don't do it so I can eat more, I just don't really mind it cause I'd rather have the calories not in me (though I guess I like that I got to enjoy eating the food, but don't have to be responsible for the calories).

On Sunday night I ate salmon, then went and PBd, then came back and ate more salmon, and ate more than I should have. I was full at the time of the first PB. This situation is rare for me though, it's usually just the first few bites that cause me to PB cause I can't seem to remember to go slow until I get the terrible chest pain, but then I can PB fairly quickly, and then I feel fine and can keep eating.

I ate two bites of orange chicken (from Panda Express) on Saturday, and was glad when I PBd - I knew I shouldn't have eaten it in the first place, so I was glad it didn't stay in me.

This next part is going to sound even stupider than the first part - before the band I was not bulemic, but I always had this desire to be able to make myself throw up. I tried a few times, but I hated to throw up so much I couldn't do it. I always felt that if I had more self control I could make myself throw up even though I didn't like it (I should have been looking for the self control to stop eating, not to be able to throw up). I used to drink a lot, and when we drank a lot we ate a lot, and I could throw up when I drank. It was more acceptable because people chalked it up to just drinking too much, and it didn't bother me because ... well, because I was drunk and could make myself throw up much easier.

I know all the medical reasons why it's unhealthy to PB. I know how dangerous it is to my band. I know that it will greatly lead to having to have the band removed. Logically, I know all this. But yet, I'm happy when my I get rid of any excess calories. Even if I only eat 800 calories in a day - if I PB 200 of them, that's all the more weight loss.

Ok so Im not here to judge. Sadly I know what it is to be satisfied with getting rid of food that you've eaten. Am I bulemic I dont think so I dont ever if not rarely actually intentionally get rid of a meal. Usually I will do so If Ive eaten somthing that couses nausea or just doesnt seem to sit well but this is like a few times a year if that. Ive spoken with my dr and he said something like that is normal its an animal instinct to get rid of somthing that feels bad in your stomach. But when your doing it often monthly or weekly, daily ah you have a problem. I understand perhaps not being able to process or digest because of the band and then needing to pb something but to do it repeatedly probably isnt to good for your band or your body. Id chew more and eat slower and maybe even add a little Water if your damned to eat something and its really dry. But Id also talk to my dr.

Eva

Hey Lara,

I had some slight pain if I drink too quickly. Usually a little burp will make me happy. So far, no probs with meat. I have not tried a steak, but I have had chicken breast, pork chop (grilled) and fajitas which went down well. I think once I was so hungry I ate too fast and I walked around the house with my arms over my head. After a few minutes, the pain went away. Felt like someone was sitting on my chest.

I have to tell you that I know exactly how you feel and I do the same thing. I have over eaten at times and then will go through the "throw up" motion and voila I puke it up and there are even times that I will eat just a bit more lol. No wonder I am fat lol!

I just learned about PB last wk, at my first doctors apt since Jan. I switched doctors because we had a very bad personality conflict. My new doc was on maternity leave. I do the PB thing at least once a day. I thought it was the chewing and swallowing to fast. I got a fill last week and I feel fine. Oh do I have alot to learn about this band. I just don't want anything bad to happen to me in the mean time. I love my new doc by the way she treats me like a real person opposed to the other doc I was a statistic. Want to talk about mental abuse???? I would never go back to see him.

this scares the holy living shi~t right out of me!!! This is not right in any way, shape or form. Get help before you end up losing what you love so much. It is NOT okay to do this and to try to make it alright by saying you only do it once in awhile...

Keep it up long enough and you will be on the band removal thread telling people how they should not make themselves throw up. PLEASE...get someone to help you with this. Enough people think that you HAVE to throw up when your banded..I wonder if this is the reason...I wonder if a lot of people actually do this all the time????? Scarey stuff here....

WHAT HAPPENS IF YOU HAVE TO PB. BY THAT I MEAN SAY YOU'VE JUST TAKEN A BITE OF FOOD AND IT DOESN'T WANT TO GO DOWN. THEN BEFORE YOU KNOW IT THE FOOD COMES UP ALL ON IT'S OWN? i DON'T ENJOY WHEN THIS HAPPENS BUT, I DO FEEL BETTER BC OF THE PAIN OF THE FOOD BEING STUCK. I WAS BANDED IN JAN AND AM STILL TRYING FOODS OUT. LAST NIGHT I TRIED A STEAK. FIRST BITE I CHEWED TO MUSH, SWALLOWED AND THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO FALL TO THE FLOOR IN PAIN...IT WAS STUCK. IT WASN'T GOING DOWN SO IN MY MIND IT HAD TO COME UP. HOW MUCH PBING IS TOO MUCH?