I pray this doesn't offend anyone because its not my intention. We went to dinner after church and I watched an oversized woman (much bigger than me) wolf down her food. As I watched I remembered everything that Im learning in nutrition class....slow down and eat slower....enjoy the taste of your food, etc. She was literally swallowing her food without chewing and I thought to myself...is that me? Do people watch me eat like that? Do I eat fast? Do I swallow my food without chewing? All of it became so real to me for the first time I think. I couldn't even eat my own food. She looked totally out of control. I felt like I could be watching myself.

From that moment on I've vowed to be totally in control of what I put in my mouth. As Im preparing for RNY, Im going to start adopting better habits and teaching myself all the important things that I know I still have to master for the successful use of my tool. I pray everyday that I can make the necessary changes in habit for a successful change to a healthy lifestyle.

My reality has been checked!!!!

I dont think its offensive at all. Honestly, Ive probably eaten like that women. Out of control and losing yourself in a dark place. Its very sad. Congrats for making your life change. I hope to have my RNY scheduled in Nov or Dec. It will be nice to have a real life again but realizing having to face your feelings head on can be a challenge too. Its all part of the journey back to a healthy life. Good luck!

We should be having surgery about the same time. Let's keep inn touch. Thanks for the reality check comment. Its really real now...