I fell off the band wagon! Pls help me get back on.

I lost 13 kgs in the first 4 months. Gained back about 4 kgs within the first year. And now approaching my year 2 I have gained back another 3-4 kgs. Whoops!

I know my mistakes. I drink too much liquid with calories (lattes, coffee mixes, Cereal drinks) and I ate too much too! I find comfort in food so I guess whenever I am emotionally unhappy I am back to eating again. I puked a lot, too. So I know the band is working! I found sometimes if I chew really well, I can still eat a lot like going out to fine restaurants (ie. eat 3 courses of food (sharing dessert)).

And I am so done with working out. I am so unmotivated. Please don't judge me and just help....

PS. my weight loss scale is NOT updated.....

I'm going to pm you.

edie

Hi dear. Nobody should judge you. We're all trying to get somewhere. If you can eat that much, you may have a dilated pouch....or need a fill, even if you throw up some things. Might be worth talking to your fill dr. Other than that, your eating is emotional according to you. How about addressing the emotional issues...and maybe underlying depression? Maybe a good eating disorder therapist or a depression doc might help. Do you go to a support group?

Thank you Betsy Jane and Edie for the support.

Living in Asia and being Asian, I don't find it very comfortable to open up to my fellow asians. I tried to see a psychologist once to work through my problem and it got really strange. The conclusion of the whole thing is that I didn't really have a problem to begin with. It's more my fault though than anything.

I do suffer from eating disorder. I do know that. I just can't seem to overcome it.

Do you know anyone that can do that kind of counselling online and such support group?