Nutella sadness

sweeTHEArt · April 18, 2007

I had some nutella and ice cream after my Soup and cheese this evening. I am 5 weeks post op tomorrow and I know that I didnt do perminant damage and i certainly don't even feel THAT full but I feel so guilty!

i haven't been perfect this entire time but I also haven't gotten sick and i have lost over 20 pounds so far. I make sure to eat my Protein first as much as possible and try not to eat and drink at the same time. But how come I feel so miserable now?

I had a bad evening and found out I owe 600 bucks to the government for my taxes so I came home and had the lapband equivalant of a binge. No sickness but I just feel like I may never unlearn my habits. Does the fact I am not full and craving more food mean I need a fill ASAP or just that I am a lapband failure and I am never going to manage to be thin?

I am scheduled for April 30th to get a fill but I just feel like I am sitting here undoing everything and cheating when I should be motivated and enjoying life...I need to rant and know what other people think/feel for support.:help:

Autumn444 · April 18, 2007

Dont feel bad... everything in moderation. Congrats on your loss! you should be proud... Stop beating yourself up!

Today, I was feeling like an ice cream. So i took my kids to baskin robins and got a JR. scoop of ice cream.... It wasnt even low fat! but i slowly ate it, enjoyed it... i dont feel guilty.

Stop beating yourself up....

LFERLAND · April 18, 2007

DO NOT count yourself as a failure!!

I am quite disturbed at your statement:

“Does the fact I am not full and craving more food mean I need a fill ASAP or just that I am a lapband failure and I am never going to manage to be thin?”

You are extremely hard on yourself. DO NOT count yourself as a failure!!

We ALL have problems with our emotional hunger… if we didn’t then we would not have needed the Lapband!! It is OK to have a temporary lapse in food judgment. You were stressed and in normal fashion you ate to soothe yourself. It is natural to feel miserable after “cheating” but that is because you know how hard you are working to change your life.

Remember: It is very easy to learn an addiction and VERY DIFFICULT to UNLEARN it. Give yourself time to make the psychological change.

DO NOT count yourself as a failure!! You CAN and I an sure you WILL succeed. You have obviously been trying for the last 5 weeks… You have already lost 20lbs and that is GREAT!! Keep up the good work!

Don’t forget to praise yourself for the hard work and great job you are doing! Don’t just beating yourself up for the temporary lapse in food judgment.

As for the not feeling full that particular night… I think your mistake was eating Soup first. liquids go straight through the band and do not fill you up. You therefore had extra room for the Snacks. Not to mention that ice cream, once in your body melts and, like the soup, goes straight through the band. So, of what you ate, it was only the cheese and Nutella that COULD have filled you up.

If you are experiencing “not full and craving more food” on a regular basis then yes, you are in need of a fill.

Ok, I know… long winded, but I hope it helped.

sweeTHEArt · April 18, 2007

Thanks guys. I realize I was being hard on myself and probably a little melodramatic too but it is frustrating to flounder so early in this journey. Today is a new day but I definitely have a sweet tooth and am trying not to indulge it too much...so tricky!