...for my weight journal, and OMG I'm starting to resent my "fat body" WAY more now after seeing it (without shirt) in photos! At my highest weight, I had zero self esteem until I finally decided to love myself as I was. Now that I am super close to surgery I have been hating every inch of fat on my body! Is this normal? I had finally made peace with my body, dressed it with cute clothes, nice shoes, jewelry, perfume, make up, etc.....but Now, I could care less about all those temporary fixes! I want my little body back. :-/

...for my weight journal, and OMG I'm starting to resent my "fat body" WAY more now after seeing it (without shirt) in photos! At my highest weight, I had zero self esteem until I finally decided to love myself as I was. Now that I am super close to surgery I have been hating every inch of fat on my body! Is this normal? I had finally made peace with my body, dressed it with cute clothes, nice shoes, jewelry, perfume, make up, etc.....but Now, I could care less about all those temporary fixes! I want my little body back. :-/

It is very normal and in my mind a good attitude. I noticed that you didn't say you hated yourself, you said that you hated the fat on your body. Very good, that fat is not you, it is something in and on your body that needs to go. Kick it out, it is in your power! The body that you want back is waiting to come out. Make it happen!

Thanks! I am just feeling pretty uncomfortable in my fat suit, it's like an itchy sweater, lol!