Well the doc. saw me but couldn't do an barium swallow today so he unfilled me and told me to come back on monday. So what do I do in the mean time?

Sorry Jack,

Those are great ideas btw. Thanks!

Lately I have had a loss of restriction, I figured I needed a fill until I had one night of pretty bad reflux. That got me concerned. The doctor managed to see me today but could not do a barium swallow because everyone else was gone. So I was unfilled all the way and am waiting till Monday to go do the barium.

What I have learned so far is that when i'm stressed (like now) or bored I want to eat. It makes me feel better. Alot better. But now I know I can't eat to feel better. If something is wrong I need to cut my diet so maybe my pouch and band will be ok by Monday. If something is not wrong I still don't need to pig out just because I don't have a band. So I am sitting here figuring out what will make me feel better other than food and am thus far no solutions are coming to mind. :-p. This too will pass I guess and things will be back to normal soon I hope.

I know what you mean about trying to find other things to do - I'm not sure how long you've been banded but it is still an ongoing issue for me (sometimes I wonder if I'm mental - I mean, how long does it take to replace all these old behaviors??)

Anyway, no doubt food is a source of comfort and response to any and all emotions. I used to get up every night in the middle of the night for a snack - for 6 months I would stare in the refrigerator until I decided to read a book and eventually that behavior stopped.

You are obviously under a lot of stress but good that you won't eat (even if out of fear) -so maybe you can explore another way of soothing yourself?

Try a few things - I like to keep busy with hands, scrapbooking, crocheting, organizing a closet or drawers - writing a letter are a few things that help me.

Good luck to you!