I really don't know how much longer I can live in severe pain like this. Got up this morning and tried to drink got down my protein smoothy but the pain has literally not lifted at all. I have hit such a bad point I'm now drinking wine to make it stop. I have neither quality or quantity of life left. Searched down Walgreens to see what script I have I could possibly get filled out of pocket and I have nothing. I have an appt tomorrow, but I'm not sure how its gonna go. If I didn't have children and an amazing guy holding me up y'all I'd give up and die I'm to that point. This really blows. I can't be admitted because I refuse to make ppl take time off work for me yet again. I feel like a burden on my boyfriends family(bc that's all I have now) and really sit and wonder when is my boyfriend going to say to hell with this shit and walk off. He's so terrified he's left work and drove home in the middle of the night to make sure I'm still breathing. I can't imagine the fear he has. I wanted a life from this surgery I didn't expect to make such a bad deal with the devil when I got on that table... really bad day. Whats sad is its beautiful out and I'm yet again on the couch. Seriously how much more can a human being take before they give up?

Wow. I finally feel normal. I've had some of those and my prior relationship he abused and hurt me so bad that now in this relationship I'm terrified to say I'm sick. Hence why I walked around for weeks with a ruptured appendix. Now with this spasms I think he's finally getting why I am disabled and its not just seizures it'd a basket of problems. I found on his phone yesterday where he had been researching the pain I'm in and how severe. I smiled for a second and thought maybe this time God has sent me somebody who truly does care bc like u said in waiting for the day I'm left. Its sad really sad u go through hell just to go thru hell.

To add to this this is how bad Dr's are. Ok end of Oct 2012 I started having bad right lower belly cramping. Kept getting worse finally took myself to the ER after seeing urgent care 3 times. Told the ER doc I had been to urgent care was treated for gastrointeritis sent home. I said then i came to the ER bc you all can do u/sound etc. Well he does a pelvic us comes in says he seen Fluid and I had ruptured a ovarian cyst its now Nov 25. Then proceeds to lecture me for 30 minutes about narcotic pain medication and how they don't like treating "unknown" belly pain and giving out narcotic scripts. I went another week. It was going on 3 weeks I went back to my primary he had to FORCE the insurance to do a MRI they did it and found out my appendix had ruptured 3 weeks prior and the fluid the dr saw was actually my appendix. I spent 2 weeks in SICU and instead of lap surgery I had to be fully opened and had to wear a drain for a week. I had to have a private person pay for my antibiotics because they were so expensive. This is the shit I run into. I go in there in pain and get treated like I'm narcotic seeking. So' date=' precisely why I don't even go to the ER.[/quote']

Wow belly pain like u described checking g for appendix is routine! If I were you I'd call the billing dpt at the hospital and talk about lawsuit an let them toss the bills when they let you go 3 weeks you could have DIED

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Forgot to add I'm about 95% sure its esophagus spasms but at this point Idk.

I thought the exact same thing!! I think I have the spasms also. I ha horrible chest pain today and had to leave work early and go to the doctors. My surgeon said he thinks it is a stricture And is doin an egd and dilation may 1 ill be 4 week post op ! It is chest pain so bad I thought it could really be a cardiac issue

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My fiance has told me several times that he doesn't understand why I don't just leave. The answer is simple. I love him. He didn't choose any of this and I keep reminding him that none of this is his fault.