Here we go my "steadies." Post away.

(((KAYDOLL)))) Girl I missed you!!! Hey don't feel bad, if you read any of my posts you'll see I was doing and eating exactly the same as you - but I've finally got my shit together and have begun to lose again (down 4 lbs the past 2 weeks, but 3 of those were my floater lbs) anyhoo I am feeling so much better! I feel like I'm in control again, getting on LBT is a Godsend of encouragement, and I'm walking again 2x a day. I'm no marathon runner (or biker like our dear Bman) but I'm moving this slug of a body again. You can do it!!! and heres a kick in the arse to get you going! :confused::deadhorse:Ok so thats kicking a dead horse but it should help. :confused: love ya

Nikki can't believe no one stuck this in here!! :preggers:Too cute!!

Boo - my dd has cysts, she has them under control with the pill but I guess thats not an option for you. We had the same er thing, we thought she was having appendix too - hope you're feeling better.

Bman and Va enjoy your trips

Claud - good luck hon, hope all works out for you with this job.

:kiss2: kisses to the rest of you - (trying to hurry, work is calling)

We had a horrible phone call this past weekend. My dh's very best friend died on Sat. He had a massive heart attack, just 54 years old. He, of course, was obese, didn't smoke but being a trucker I think did some drugs - not saying all truckers do drugs but I know he's been known to do speed, so anyway we are saddened by his death. My dh is flying out to Minn for the funeral on Thursday night and coming home Sat. Its just so sad that we just never know when our last goodbye will be.

love ya ladies - have a good monday!

(((Steph)))) I am so sorry to hear about DH's best friend. How very sad. You just never know, do you? I hope your DH does ok over the next week or so with the traveling. It will be tough...it is one of those mortality slaps in the face when people in our own age range pass. very scary.

Thanks for your welcome back wishes. I am glad to see you are losing. I realize this will be a life long thing for me. I am grateful to be honest that I have not been losing weight while I have been snacking on crap. That would not have taught me anything. It is important for me to have to work at this, anything too easy will only lead me into unhealthy habits.

I got a bike for Mother's Day this year and have been enjoying that this summer. I have a 10 mile path that I have done with some frequency but that is the only exercise I am getting. I miss my gym routine but look forward to getting back on the wagon when the kids go back to school. I think part of me was okay with maintaining throughout the summer because my schedule is so tough and hitting it hard core in Sept. At the same time, I knew I needed to get some of my habits under control.

Nikki-how far along are you? Are you feeling well??? Congratulations! Very exciting!

steph sorry to hear about your dh friend. I will pray for yall

kay I too have trouble eating the wrong foods out of convience which is no excuse but I use it sometimes I got a fill last tuesday and it has helped a lot

you can do this

b man hope you are have a awesome vacation

nat where are you

brandy glad to hear you are on the road to recovery rock those size 12's girl

Steph--I hope you DH is doing well. What a horrible shock and so sad, I will kep his family in my thoughts.

Kay--We all go through it sometimes, don't worry hun! You did the right thing and got yourself back on track.

Bk--good luck with your fill! :tea:

Well, I am off for a nap. All this trying to feel better is exausting, lol..

STEPH....good to see you back posting. sorry to hear about your DHs friend! that totally sucks.

BOO....hope you're feeling better.

Well, i've gotta say, depression and heartbreak is great for weight loss! I'm only 3 pounds away from my 60 pound b.day goal (b.day on the 23rd), and it looks like I might actually get there! Bad news is, it looks like I'm not going to CA this weekend w/the guy b/c he's more interested in some other chick. Feels like my Ex husband leaving me for someone else all over again.....it sucks. So I'll spend the weekend mostly in bed I'm guessing...just b/c being depressed is so exhausting. Then I told my best friend that she has to kick my ass next week. I figure I'll allow myself a few days of 'wallowing' then I have to pull my s**T together and move on. I know there are other fish in the sea....I just really loved this one :-(

Va - sweetie you didn't love him, you really liked him alot and you know deep in your heart you're better off without him. I'm sorry it hurts, that sucks but yes there are BETTER fish in the sea! I have a this thing about people (men,boys, jerks) who can't decide between you and another girl, I say keep far far away from them! I think you are a wonderful sweet woman and why should you have to play seconds to anyone, or share his affections? You don't want that kind of relationship, you want the guy to be CRAZY about you. You want a guy who can't wait to see you, who thinks about YOU as much as you think about him and who schedules his life (as much as possible) around you. I've always told my daughters don't even bother with anyone who can't decide if he likes you or her, he doesn't deserve you. And I'm telling you Kirsten, he doesn't deserve you. He may have been fun and a good friend but he isn't worthy of you.

Thanks to all you well wishers, my dh leaves tomorrow. He'll be ok, he's just really sad. Delane was like a brother to him. And his wife, keep her in your prayers, she says she doesn't know how she'll be financially. She thinks her insurance isn't going to cover "natural" causes.

Hi Nat...I see you on here reading. I miss you!!!

(((kirsten)))) I am sorry you are going through this heartache. Take your weekend to wallow and then get back out there. It does suck. I have been there. Do you believe you deserve better? I think we all believe you do. But if you are not convinced, I think it puts that out there subconciously. So if you don't, work on that before finding another man. If you do then great...he is out there waiting! Love ya girl!

I am having a weird day. It is almost 2pm and I am just out of the shower. I woke up this morning with head spins. I am dizzy and kept having to go back to bed. It is a weird feeling. I am wondering if it has to do with my sugar detoxing or something else. I am going to let it be today and see how I feel tomorrow but I really don't like this. To boot, I have no time for this kind of down time..too much to do! ugh.

Well, I went this morning for my second fill. I was nervous to begin with.

(During surgery the band was too tight so my overnight stay turned out to be 4 days with another surgery on the fourth day.) So you can see why fills make me nervous. Lucky me, I got an intern who was making rounds with my

Doc. He couldn't find my port opening. Unfortunately, my doctor couldn't find it either. So I am going to the hospital tomorrow morning to have my fill done with the x-ray. I am not a big fan of one stick, let alone 4 sticks!

Doctor didn't seem concerned with my lack of weight loss. He said to give it time. "I didn't gain 100 pounds overnight and I won't lose it overnight either."

I fee like Rodney Dangerfield - If it will happen, it will happen to me!

{{{{{{{KAYDOLL AND STPEH}}}}}}} Seriously, what would I do w/out you!!!?? You guys always know just the right thing to say. Of course it doesn't help that it made me cry in the office, but oh well, everything seems to be doing that to me today! Thanks for the words of support and encouragement!! I definitely needed them!!

and to answer your question Kaydoll....I know I deserve the best, and I just thought he was the best, but clearly not. His loss though, right??

Kuebel...sorry to hear you didn't get the fill, but I'm sure everything will be fine tomorrow under the xray. Hang in there! The Dr. is right..it didn't come on in a day, it won't come off in a day...as long as your slowly losing, you're moving in the right direction!

YOU GUYS ROCK!! Thanks for letting me come here and wallow :tea:

I know there are other fish in the sea....I just really loved this one :-(

Yeah, but it sounds like the fish is bad, you don't need that! I am sorry though he turned out to be a jerk. But remember everything happens for a reason! EVERYTHING, even a**hole men.

Big hugs to you sweetie.

Kuebel--so sorry about all of the trouble! I am so glad though that your Dr is supportive of you! It really does make a difference. I find myself scared to see my surgeon most of the time because I have heard him yell at others, so I never want to dissappoint him.

I am hating myself right now. I am on steriods right now and eating like a freaking pig. I want to shoot myself. I just started these damn pills and I have 5 days to go. This is why I fought them, I do not need to eat like this. I can not stop it. I feel ravenous. I hate me...or my body for needing them.

I am feeling like a failure as a mother lately as well. Brooke has been very depressed and it is killing me. (She is Bi Polar) There is nothing I can do for her, I try so hard to make her happy and she just cries all of the time. She even said she wants to die. Of course the therapist has talked to her, but I don't think we can get to her. She is 8 years old, 8 years old. :tea:

Where is our banded mama?? I haven't seen her in a few days.

(((Brandy)))

I am really sorry about your struggles. Try to believe there is a bigger plan for you and that every trial and tribulation is a lesson we have to get through. I know it seems tough to deal with it sometimes, but that really helps me through. I wish there was something I could do for you. I am also sorry to hear about your baby girl. 8 years old is so young to be dealing with those emotions. Is she being medicated? Bipolar is so tough and I cannot imagine how helpless you can feel sometimes. Just do the best you can and love your girl. I know you do. It sucks when as a mother we cannot control everything and fix it all. I wish I had some great advice but I want you to know I am thinking of you.

Good morning girls.

I feel much better today, no dizzy head. Yesterday was terrible and I really felt awful. Here is the weird part, Monday my scale read 221, this morning it reads 214...Is that possible? I weighed yesterday and was 216. (I know, obsessive). Could I really drop 7 pounds (probably water) in 4 days after not losing anything in months??? I know when I did South Beach before back in the unbanded days I lost a good chunk those first few weeks but I didn't think I could replicate that seeing as I eat so much less now anyway. Could it have to do with detoxing the sugar and crap out of my body??? The bigger question, is it off to stay??? I am excited at the prospect of this jump starting my loss again.

I have not had a fill since March and then went from 1cc to 1.5cc. I passed on the fill last time and was considering getting one in September, but I thought first I should really try following all the rules and seeing what happens.

Interesting...I had to share.

wow Kay 7 lbs!!! I'd be loving that! Although I'm feeling pretty ok right now, after the whole depressing no fill event that happened with my dr. I've gone down a good 4 lbs and I know 3 of those were my swing lbs. Now I've (finally) got my period, it drives me crazy never knowing when it'll hit, but I'm hoping that I'll get up in a couple days and see the scale move again.

I'm still counting the cals, but I'm still keeping close to 1300, some days I get around 1000-1100 but I just can't seem to keep it below 1300 most other days. I guess thats why I'm a slow loser, slow sucks but if its steady I'll be happy. Just a pound a week is 52 lbs a year!

Huge storm today - love ya girls!

Brandy...You are a GREAT Mom!!! Unfortunately BiPolar is not something you can control externally...no matter how hard you try, your daughter will have those feelings. But you are doing the right thing by getting her professional help and just being there for her. Don't be so hard on yourself! (easier said than done...I KNOW!!! cause I'm about to beat up on myself in a minute LOL).

As for the steroids.....just know that as soon as you're done with them, your eating will be back under control. Hang in there!!

As for everything happening for a reason...WELL.....I AM going to go to CA w/the guy after all! He called me last night and told me he really wants me to go with him but ONLY AS A FRIEND. Now that part is going to be hard for me, but I am going to have to learn to accept it b/c he's dating this other chick (who is not thrilled that I'm going, but not my problem!). But its so down to the wire (my flight is at 7am tomorrow!) that I just said F' it...I'm heartbroken either way...this may be the last chance I get to spend time w/him before he disappears into Girlfriend-land....and it's CA wine country, which I've never been to! I've got the ticket, and really, how much worse can I feel than I already do!? I know that when I get back on Sunday, that's it...I'm walking away. He says he still wants me in his life, etc...but I'm sure he'll be way too busy w/the new GF to bother w/me. SO yes...I know this is probably a STUPID and UNHEALTHYthing for me to do, but I'm doing it anyways...I've got counseling next Thursday so I'll work on picking up the pieces then! If everything does happen for a reason, then there is some reason for this weekend too.

KAYDOt...glad to hear your scale JUMPED!! That is always a great feeling to see that happen..and yes, its definitely possible!! Way to go!!!

STEPH...just remember slow and steady wins the race!! You're doing good! I'm right there with ya girl!!

Ok ladies...wish me luck this weekend...hope that I don't lose my mind and that when I get home I can let him go once and for all and move on to something bigger and better, because DAMMIT...THATS WHAT I DESERVE!!! He's sooooo loosing out!!! MUHWAAA HA HA HA!!!!