I had to bake for a baskesale yesterday, then go and work at it. Talk about a struggle! I felt like the alcholic tending bar. I used to bake all of the time - and eat it. Once I had surgery, as part of my transition, I have kept trigger foods and activities out of my house. I think that has been a huge contributor to my success so far.

I guess I was just shocked at how easy it would be to slide back into old habits. I resisted the dough and the Cookies while baking, and did just fine, and was pretty proud of myself. I went to the bakesale, and couldn't believe how bad I wanted these caramel pecan brownies someone brought! Of course, it was easy to resist them because I'm a closet eater, so there was no way I was getting those, lol. But then I came home, and I ATE A COOKIE!! Uggh. It's not so bad in and of itself, it's just that I couldn't seem to control myself. I felt ashamed and disgusted while and after I ate it. I haven't lost control like that since I had surgery. Then, all evening long, all I could think about was those browniesl I didn't do bad yesterday with calories, but that was a glimpse of what could happen if I let it.

So, today is a new day and I'm back in charge, but I just wondered if anyone else has had a similar experience? Did you overcome the moment? How did you prevent an ongoing backslide? Someone please commiserate with me.

I have to chime in and let you all know that I had a very delicious cupcake the other day and guess what? it was awesome, delicious, scrumptious, and then sickeningly sweet, nauseously overpowering and I had to stop after 3 bites. I found myself lying down for an hour after those bites...I think I was getting a baby dump. It was too much sugar although I mentally wanted to devour it I really couldn't- it made me feel sick.

I will, maybe, have a bite or two after I reach my goal. Until then I'd like to stay away from the processed sugar and ****.. ;D