My doctor referred me for WLS. I go to the bariatric surgery place at university of Missouri on may 8th. My rheumatoid doctor suggested it and has written me a referral letter. I already saw my pshycologist and he signed off. My insurance will cover all but 10% with doctor referral and a BMI higher than 40, I am at 47. Totally nervous and scared and embarrassed. Embarrassed that I got here, that I couldn't fix it on my own. I know part of it is my health issues but it was my fault for eating Oreos and everything else.

I have RA, lupus, and hasimotos thyroiditis.

I'm scared of having the surgery. That I will get in there and they won't do my surgery. That it won't work for me.

Just anxious and nervous all at the same time.

So here I am at the beginning of my journey into a different portion of my life.

Congratulations on taking this step. Everything you are feeling is normal. I too was frustrated and upset with myself that I had to take this route. But that is in the past. Just keep moving forward and don't look back. You can't change the past, however the future is up to you.

Good luck.