Finally the next step

There are different things that spark a person's interest in having weight loss surgery. I can honestly say there were different instances that began my journey, but I can't exactly remember which one. What I can remember is finally saying to myself that I I need to do something about this weight I'm carrying around. I was initially interested in the lap band and began that process around 2010. I did everything I was supposed to until a meeting with the psych doc pushed everything back. It wasn't because I was crazy, it had to do with the fact I was on medication for anxiety and she felt I was a risk. I decided after going through all the appointments, that I would lose the weight on my own. I didn't need surgery. Well then life and reality set in when I wasn't losing the weight and things took a turn for the worse. I started having weight related sciatica , arthritis, and I was pre diabetic all at age 23. So in April of 2012 I restarted my journey despite the set backs and in Nov 12 I was ready to take the leap. During this time I had been told about the sleeve instead of the lap band. I wasn't hesitant, but after researching it I decided that this was the surgery for me. In 15 days I will be a sleeved. I am ready for this. I am not nervous. I am excited for this next step, but not overly excited. I judged myself before for wanting to do this, but I have made my peace with it and believe that this is the best thing I could do for myself. What I hope to get out if this surgery is to reinvent my body. I'm starting from scratch and ready to begin the next phase of my journey.