I am still in the pre-op phase and today at nap time with my 3y/o daughter I had a horrible dream. I was going in for my psych eval and three "professionals" met me in this office. I use quotes around the word because they acted anything but professional, eating and drinking and interrupting me, it was ludicrous! Any ways I had to get two out of the three of them to sign off on my eval and I only managed to get one to sign off because, as she said, I was pretty and she liked beautiful people. The second one wouldn't sign off and she refused to tell me why. The third one refused to sign off because she asked me what my worse fear concerning the surgery was and I said "Death". She then interjected and was like "I didn't ask for your ultimate fear I asked what a bad fear of yours is!" So I then began to explain to her that a fear lesser than death would be a leak along my staple line.

Lol IDK why I am sharing the horrible dream I had with all of you, other than to possibly see if any of you experienced the same thing pre-op? I have been having mixed thoughts concerning the surgery after I read a thread about a woman whom is still fighting for her life 2 months post op. If the dream I had has any indication of truth to it I need not worry because the psych team wont let me have it done :-/

Some times we are working through inner conflicts through our dreams.

I was truly terrified of dying during surgery or complications after - plus had my precious 10 yr old daughter telling me she loves my fat to cuddle with lol

I was also facing the " Mexico self pay fear " . I canceled and got a refund 2 times before I finally decided to go through with it and I thank God I did. This forum is the only reason I finally did it and felt safe enough to go, it feels real and honest and raw and I met about 30 people in Mexico that all are doing fine and dandy today My nightmares were about being sooo skinny like an anorexic person and there was no way for me to stop the weightloss.. it was quite frightening so I totally feel ya but at the same time, its the best thing I have ever done and I wish you all the luck in the world.

I have lost 60 lbs - no high blood pressure meds, no diabetic issues... no cholesterol meds.. but above all mentally.. I am a different person.. the positive thinking and just a simple happiness I dont think I have ever known..

stay in touch

What made you decide to go to Mexico for your surgery, did insurance deny you? If so what was your starting weight when dealing with the insurance company?

I am pre-op and I've started having a recurring nightmare that I've just taken a bite of real food but realizing too late that I'm supposed to be on liquids only! It totally freaks me out that I might forget after surgery. LOL.