Surgery Booked For April - Scared

Hi there,

I have my surgery scheduled with Dr. Almanza on 4/28. I have been staying up all night and researching researching and researching. I have contacted over 30 doctors, attended seminars, made phone calls and have asked tons of questions. Still I'm scared.

I'm scared about a few things. First, I'm scared to have surgery in Mexico. I keep going back and forth on this because of the after support locally if I get it done here, but the cost here is ridiculous! I was also worried about the posts on here about Dr. Almanza, but after careful research and lots of phone calls, I think he'll be fine for me. It's just scary going to Mexico to get surgery done!

Next I'm scared about doing this and having a complication like a leak or an infection. I can't have this happen. I am thankful that I am 39 and healthy, other than being overweight and having PCOS. I just had my gall bladder removed and I hear the surgery and recovery is very similar so I think I know what to expect. I bounced back very quickly from the gall bladder surgery.

Finally, I am scared about getting this dramatic surgery done and not losing the weight I desire or GULP! gaining it back! I have been on up and down diets for over 12 years now. I know how to lose about 40 or 50 pounds, but I keep gaining it back. I have about 80-90 pounds to lose. I'm scared I'm going to go through this extreme thing and fail again. I am an emotional eater. I know this surgery won't fix that. It is only a tool, I know that. I am seeing a therapist to help me, but I still eat. I really hope this will help me stay on track and help me maintain a healthy weight for the rest of my life.

Ultimately, I believe in God and I know my Lord is with me and I have prayed through this and I trust in my Lord. But I am still human.