I'm cranky, I'm clingy, I'm needy, I'm bitchy, I'm bloaty. I'm hating everything about being a woman right now and I'm hating my band even more. After all this time, I've learned some ways to deal with my emotions rather than stuffing them down with food, but PMS is hitting me hard this month and nothing is working. All I want to do is eat. I CAN'T EAT!

I figured I'd drive 20 minutes to get a take out salad from the new Saladworks. Normally, I'd just pop through Wendy's or go to Subway or something to get a salad, but I figured I'd treat myself with a trip to Saladworks. I got a nice garden salad with extra cucumbers and broccoli, diced chicken and balsamic vinaigrette. Two bites, gets stuck, goes down after much spitting saliva into the sink.

Decide maybe I need something a little easier to eat. Drive to Taco Bell, get a crunchy taco with fire sauce. Three bites of taco, I'm done. It's stuck. Repeat steps above. Hate to vomit and will happily drool until it goes down or I have no other choice. Taco goes down, the rest gets thrown out and I give up.

I should be happy that my band kept me from binging, but I'm not. Usually I am, usually I'm ecstatic, but damnit, I had NO restriction yesterday, but I wasn't feeling nearly as PMS-y so I ate normally. Today I'm totally PMS-y and I can't eat. Grr. GRRR! I'm sure I'll be happy later that I didn't go hog wild with the food, but right now I'm just pissed. I couldn't even enjoy the food that I did eat, because each bite hurt. Guess the head issues never really go away and the only thing we can do now is deal with them, instead of eating. But, totally whiny, I don't *wanna* deal with them today. Hmmph. Thanks for letting me vent. :mad:

I can totally sympathize with you!!!!!!!!! I bite of ice cream and ouch.....I was doing OK for a while and now it is my time of the month and I am totally not being able to eat a bite without it getting stuck. I still try and take a bite, but it comes right back up. I know that is not good, so I decided tonight that it is liquids for me until the end of the week. I hope yours gets better. Take care:cool:

I have certainly had the same frustration. Only twice, though, since being banded, can I say I was absolutely FURIOUS about not being able to eat... :mad:

Gotta love that behaviour reinforcement. There are no "safe" words with the band! lol

Have I mentioned I am eternally grateful that I do NOT have the power to adjust my band whenever I want?!?!? It may not always seem that way...

I hear you too!

I get in the car and go shopping...manic, beautiful,sick sick sick shopping;)

No clothes though cuz that would just upset me more but shoes,nail polish,perfume(oh! that stinky, major $$ french stuff that I never wear:rolleyes: )Oh well!

Then i have a nap!

C

I don't have any words of comfort, just a {{{{hug}}}}}. My only treatment for killer PMS is a dark, QUIET room, but as we all know that's nearly impossible to come by. :mad:

Hope it passes quickly!

Better today. Thanks, ladies!

Shopping would have been nice, but the dog had to go see a neurologist today and I needed to save every penny I had!

Donali, this total frustration and pissy-ness only happened to me once before too. I was only two weeks out and found myself sitting in front of my computer crying because I wanted a Wendy's big bacon classic. It was *horrible* and I was so thankful I'd only gone through it that one time. And yesterday. Wonder how many more of these days I have ahead of me!

Sucks though, when you have no money to go shopping and even ice cream hurts. I wonder if it has anything to do with the bloating...

Hopefully the occasions tend to be less and less the further we get on our journey, and the more accustomed we become to handling life in ways that don't involve eating.

I still find I have occasions when I would definitely love to overeat (but I don't feel angry/hysterical that I can't). I wonder if that will ever go away?

Glad you're feeling better! Hope the dog's okay.