Let me start off by saying that I was banded on 2/22/06. My first fill will be next month. As of last week I had lost 20 pounds. I have been eating about 1000-1200 calories per day and exercising my rear off. I go to the gym 3 times a week. I do circuit training for about 25 minutes, walk a half mile and then swim laps. I have little restriction, but have been careful about what I eat. I get at least 60 grams of Protein a day. I have slipped a couple of times, but I usually suffer enough that I don't do it again! Plus I am more active in my daily life.

I decided that my goal is to either maintain my weight or loose a couple of pounds a week until I get my fill. I was sure I had lost weight this week. But I get on the scale and I am up almost 2 pounds. TWO POUNDS! Even my husband is surprised. I don't eat near what I used to and I am exercising. No, I don't think I am gaining muscle. Or if I am, it is in an area that I can't see.

Anyway, I am discouraged. This is hard work, especially before a fill. It makes it doubly hard that people know I have had this surgery and for some reason they feel that I am obligated to report my weight loss to them each week. Well, they are in for a surprise on Monday when I announce that I will not be reporting my weight loss/gain or otherwise anymore because that is my personal business.

I have had this secret fear that this surgery won't work. Probably because I have been heavy all my life and am now 40 years old. I ended up having to pay cash for this surgery and have some guilt that I took this money away from my kids and it is wasted. I know I'm not filled yet and things will be different, but if I was eating and exercising like this without a band I would still expect to lose weight. I feel like this is my once in a lifetime chance to not be morbidly obese. I don't even want to be thin - just not such a huge size that I can't fit in any clothes or an airplane seat.

Please say nice things to me.:faint:

Five there is nothing I can add that hasn't already been said. I hope you are encouraged now and no longer discouarged.

ditto what everyone else said. we have all been there and this too shall pass.....

i only told a few people about my surgery (family and two friends) and i STILL feel under a microscrope. on some level you need to just let that go. if someone asks you about weightloss, tell them you feel great and walk away or change the subject. i had to tell my sis and mom to back off cause they were driving me crazy!! a few weeks back i told my mom that i had lost another pound, and she actually said "well i think i would be depressed if i were you"....ahhhhhh....she is just concerned about me but that cut through me like a knife. no more talking about my weight loss with my family....if they ask sometimes I just say "not talking about that today...next subject" : )

best of luck....you are doing great!!!!