So school has been out for a few weeks (I am a special ed aide) and I miss the structure it gives me (not to mention I love what I do). Don't get me wrong I also love being able to sleep in late on my days off (I work a retail job for the summer), work in my yard when it's below 90 degrees and I hope to spend more time at the pool.

My problem is that I don't have the same schedule that worked perfectly for me through the school year. It is soooo much easier to stay away from food when it is not always around. Even though my start time for my summer job is later than my school job and it is about the same distance away, I have not been able to get myself in the habit of walking to work yet this summer. I did it almost every day during the school year. I have no good reason for this. Sure I can say it is because it is too hot but the truth is it's usually not that bad before 9 a.m. or after 6 p.m. I just need to get my butt in gear and do it.

I also have been pushing it and eating things that I really shouldn't. I do feel that we should not deny ourselves or it will backfire but I also know it is a lot easier for me to say NO to something and stay away from it completely than it is to have a taste and then say no to later. Does that make sense? Think of it this way, if I have ice cream at home then there is more in the freezer calling my name. If I never eat it at home in the first place it doesn't bother me as much as it does once I have that first taste. If I have it at a restraunt it's not as bad because when it is gone it is gone.

My husband made some delicious cheese cake like thingies for a lock in our daughter had at church. There were some left over and I had 4 pieces over two days. Pre-Band I would have had them all within 30 min.! If I had not had the first one this time I would have been able to stay away from all 4! There is also a "Pub" mix he got as Costco that I have been eating instead of my reduced fat Triscuts. I have never been good a journaling my food but I'm thinking I need to start doing it again to help me through the summer.

Thanks Springers for letting me confess and ramble!

One of the main reasons I decided on being banded was I knew myself well enough to know I wouldn't be able to deny myself certain foods for the rest of my life. Portion control and my lack of will power of certain foods is why I got as big as I did. Yes, I want to eat ice cream and cheese cake, but I don't need to eat the whole 1/2 gallon.

 

So I dont deny myself a little bite of those goodies. About the only thing I've completely gotten away from is breads. Don't want to get "stuck" with bread. It just sounds horrible.

 

Dont be too hard on yourself. Remember we're in this for a lifetime.

j~

Hey mom I have had a rough couple days myself. I had a bday party/4th of july party for my mom and we had icecream cake so I have had some of it for the last few days. I also had bbq food i had fixed i munched on as well as at work the party stuff. I ended up gaining this week but I also know that its from the grazing instead of my meals. I know thats a no no so Today i went and got my 2nd fill so figure I am going to lose next week. I felt bad since i had gained this week but my dr ensured me i was doing great.

Hey gottobeme I have had a rough couple days myself. I had a bday party/4th of july party for my mom and we had icecream cake so I have had some of it for the last few days. I also had bbq food i had fixed i munched on as well as at work the party stuff. I ended up gaining this week but I also know that its from the grazing instead of my meals. I know thats a no no so Today i went and got my 2nd fill so figure I am going to lose next week. I felt bad since i had gained this week but my dr ensured me i was doing great.

See how crazy i am i typed this to the wrong person.. lol I changed the name on it to you Gotta

My birthday is Sunday and I do plan to have some birthday treats, I just need to make sure they are gone before Monday!

I started using myfitnesspal.com. I really didn't want to track what I ate, but when the nutritionist suggested it, I thought I would give it a try. I'm glad I did because I had been on a plateau when I went for my first fill and I was able to tell the nurse what I had been eating. She told me I was eating way too many carbs. So, between having my first fill and trying to lower my carbs, I have finally been able to get off that plateau. Yay!

Please feel free to add me to Myfitnesspal.com. I'm julzinariz

I really should be tracking my food intake too.

j~ < turtle