I had a very bad night sleeping last night. Went to bed with my back and leg hurting and tossed and turned also had on my mind what if something does go wrong during surgery. I have my children grown (youngest is a jr and is 18) but I sure want to be around for a long long time to enjoy them and my grandbabies. So anyway this morning after waking up many times i dozed back to sleep and i had this dream. My daughter and myself went into a resturant that was serve yourself. When we went in they informed us it was based on how much you thought you would eat. When i told them i had no idea they then choose the biggest meal plan for me. I was slightly embarrassed but that didnt stop me from going to the line and start loading up my tray. I wanted everything. I kept thinking how embarrasing it was and that everyone was going to see my tray of food and think of me as a pig. But then i spotted the hugest chocolate cupcake with mile high icing. Somone was eating one and i had to have one to. I looked around and there wasnt any left except one they used for disply. So i took it. I then proceded to take a bite while everyone in the place was watching and whispering bout me being a pig. The first bite and it was awful. It tasted like ice milk only worse. I quickly tossed it away, I was waken up just at that time at what i thought was a car horn only when i looked outside wasnt anyone there. I think this was my msg that I cant contiune this way. That i must take this step to become a new me. To beat this food issue once and for all.

I know this was weird and a long story but well i had to share it with someone who might understand how this dream effected me.

I know a lot of times my life seems to enter my dreams. I understand completely the surgery is on your mind and you can't get away from it! Maybe you will have a similar dream soon and tell them you are only able to eat about 1/2 cup of food so they give you the "little kid" price!

Yes Deb I understand and I'm glad you shared it. Our surgeries, weight, and eating are all consuming right now so I think it's pretty normal for our issues with eating to invade out dreams as well.

I think it's good your open to the message

hugs~

I had a very bad night sleeping last night. Went to bed with my back and leg hurting and tossed and turned also had on my mind what if something does go wrong during surgery. I have my children grown (youngest is a jr and is 18) but I sure want to be around for a long long time to enjoy them and my grandbabies. So anyway this morning after waking up many times i dozed back to sleep and i had this dream. My daughter and myself went into a resturant that was serve yourself. When we went in they informed us it was based on how much you thought you would eat. When i told them i had no idea they then choose the biggest meal plan for me. I was slightly embarrassed but that didnt stop me from going to the line and start loading up my tray. I wanted everything. I kept thinking how embarrasing it was and that everyone was going to see my tray of food and think of me as a pig. But then i spotted the hugest chocolate cupcake with mile high icing. Somone was eating one and i had to have one to. I looked around and there wasnt any left except one they used for disply. So i took it. I then proceded to take a bite while everyone in the place was watching and whispering bout me being a pig. The first bite and it was awful. It tasted like ice milk only worse. I quickly tossed it away, I was waken up just at that time at what i thought was a car horn only when i looked outside wasnt anyone there. I think this was my msg that I cant contiune this way. That i must take this step to become a new me. To beat this food issue once and for all.

I know this was weird and a long story but well i had to share it with someone who might understand how this dream effected me.

yep.. your sub conscious telling you that its time. you are doing the right thing. hugs for you. judy