As of today I am halfway done with my preop diet. I started out great and then the fifth and sixth days were rough. I never cheated, but I just felt grumpy and tired. Today I feel like I have a clearer focus now that I am over the hump, but I am learning what a crutch food is for me.

This has been a stressful week at work and it makes me want to eat even more. As soon as I get home I could tear through the fridge and eat everything in sight (had I not thrown everything away the day before preop started). On stressfull days I would always stop at McDonald's and get some double cheeseburgers because they were my goto stress food. I would eat those suckers untill I was full then I would have one more for good measure. After a particularly crappy day today I drove home and when I drove passed McD's I jut kept going. When my nutritionist and surgeon told me my relationship with food would change, I didnt quite understand it, but I now see they were right.

Good job! G-d, isn't that the toughest thing? I decided at work today that I needed to break up with office snacks.

I hear that. I feel like my office is the potluck capital of the world and every meeting is catered. I have no idea how everyone isnt over 500 lbs where I work. There is food everywhere. It is making this process tougher.

It can be an eye opener. I'm still learning, five years down the track. I had my band unfilled four months ago in preparation for an unrelated surgery and it cant be refilled until such time as the second surgery and rount of treatment is completed - probably mid year at least. I made a deal with myself. At a BMI of 21 and having maintained for a few years, I only needed to continue to maintain so I said 3 meals a day no Snacks, not ever, not for any reason, not even a mouthful.

Well! I didnt realise how much I punctuate the day with a little nibble of this and that. There's regular times throughout the day when I would stop and eat something- coming into the house after being out is the primary time for me - kettle on, coffee made, bikkies out, lol. I wasnt an emotional eater to much degree, just a habitual one, certain situations would remind me to snack. I've really become aware of those situations again.