I am sure I'm not the only out there who sometimes 'fights' with their band. I know it's a head game and I just need to change my way of thinking, but sometimes it's easier said than done. I know I wouldn't be at a standstill right around 200 lbs, give or take 3-5 lbs if I weren't trying to find some creative way to eat what I want.

Since December 22, 2009 I have lost nearly 140 lbs. I am merely 50 lbs from my 'goal'. What's wrong with me? Why is this self-sabotage taking over all of a sudden? Is it the stress in my life? I have tons going on. What is wrong with me? I don't want to ruin this!

I just noticed we had the same surgeon I am truely impressed with how well you done! You've lost more than 10lbs per month and that's amazing. I too have days where I let my head get the best of me, but then I just pick myself up and start over. Good luck to you, I hope it works out for you

Sometimes I also get tired of working so hard at this. I'm learning that it usually works out better when I have what I want to have and dont beat myself up about it, and then just get right back to things the next day (or the second half of the day...whatever the case may be). Often, I would have that kind of attitude towards myself and food that Im just messing up and sabotaging all my hard work which would usually lead to more bingeing/comfort eating, long periods of not working at this, weight gain etc. So now, even when I eat compulsively, I try REALLY hard to cut myself some slack and think about it logically - i.e. if I have a day where I eat 2000 calories due to a "snack" or a compuslive eating episode, I STILL have burned more than I've consumed. Sometimes the scale says otherwise (the scale is such a poor indicator of day to day weight gain and loss...in a day, one's weight could fluctutate up and down 5 pounds), especially when I've snacked on carbs which tend to cause Fluid retention. But logically I know that I won't gain all my weight back, or even a pound of weight back, just by eating some ice cream. Its hard to get my emotions to catch up to my logical thinking, but the more I work on it, the easier it is.

But don't beat yourself up about anything - it will just lead to more frustration and no progress (easier said than done, I know). Its not a race and there is no time limit to your weight loss. Its just an ongoing, lifestyle change.

I really don't have much to offer since i'm early in my journey but I wanted to say that your accomplishment to date is awesome. I hope you find whatever it is you need to get you over this bump in the road. Maybe just some baby step goals right now til things settle down for you??

Best of luck!