I've been the "fat" kid as long as I can remember. To me, my weight was no different then the color or my eyes. It was...an is.

I'm not getting the lap band to look better. I'm doing it to feel better physically. To not have to take medications everyday. But the fact of the the matter is that I AM going to look better. I'm not going to be the "fat" kid anymore. And frankly I'm not sure how I'm going to handle that.

How do you look in the mirror and relate to a skinner you? How do you get away from the feeling of always being the fat kid, even when you're not?

Hello,

I am down 42 lbs, and everyone says "OMG you look great" Wow you have lost weight! Wow this wow that!

Even my husband tells me I look great, and I am so beautiful and I am getting thinner!

Now, I know I am losing weight, getting thinner and feeling good! But I honestly DON'T see it! I can feel it in my clothes, they are getting too big! I see it in my pics, but when I look in the mirror I still see that fat chick and she is always staring back at me!

Everyone always says "we ourselves are the last to see it"! It takes us longer to adjust than anyone else around us! Well I wonder why....? We have looked at ourselves for so long as the fat kid, fat girl, fat mother, fat friend, (and any other role you put yourself in)..and its hard to adjust and get used to the NEW us!

I am really happy you posted that! It makes you think hard about how you see yourself and how others see you!

Good luck on you journey!

It's good to know that its not just me. I've become so used to being the "fat kid" that I know its going to take me a while to accept the fact that I may not always be. Believe me, I'm more than willing to relinquish my title, but not till I think it holds true.

keep up the amazing job that you're doing! I wish you all the best of luck

I can totally relate to this!

I come from a family of a very fit mother, and a super skinny sister. I have always been the "chubby" one. And as much as I HATE being this size, I really am curious as to how it will be once I am no longer the fat one. I am so used to being fat, I can't remember a time when I wasn't. It's like starting over in a whole new life and role. It's strange because I feel like even when I get the band (I am still pre-op) I will have a hard time coming to terms with no longer being the fat kid.

I am glad I am not the only one!

I too fall under the same problem as you. My problem is more so that when people start to tell me how skinny i'm getting i am worried that i will allow myself to slip up on my diet and eat things that will end up putting the weight back on me. However i do look forward to running into the people that teased me when i was young and fat and are now trying to be all nice to me so i can tell them to go **** themselves. Hahahaha

I feel the same too, I have lost over 100 and I still feel supper fat. I still see me as that 300 plus girl who was never thin in her life. I know I will feel fat tell its a gone and I have a tummy tuck as I have the skin apron and the Muffen top above that, and tell i see that hour glass shap, I will fill fat.