samatha

I have been on a diet for ever. I have lost and regained wieght for 26 years never ever coming close to goal.  The last straw was I had got on Meridia andI had lost 80lbs. And yes that was not goal I had only reache 216lbs. Slowly over five years most of that wieght came back. I had been researching the surgeriesthat were available for about 3 years. I decided on the Lapband because it was the less invasive of all.  I had seen the patients of the gastric bypassand they seem to have so many problems that it did not seem worth it.  I wanted a healthier life and knew that I was not going in the right direction.I am so glad that I did it !  I still pinch myself because I can't believe I put aside all the fears and the negative reaction that I got from those that loveme.  I wanted to be able to walk up stairs without being winded.  I wanted to still wear high heels. I wanted to be healthier. I did not want to take blood pressuremedicine.  I did not want to have to use a C-pac machine to sleep. I wanted to start to live not die.  I will never regret the decision I made.I will live life like never before. I will have more self confidence. I love me now more than ever.