Starry

Awesome!!! Good Luck Ladies!! I'll keep the prayers and good wishes coming to you!!

Thank you so much Samantha!!!

That is probably my fear not coming out of the anesthia or waking up at all... but you know I have to put my faith in Gods hands I'm tellin y'all he ain't ready for me LOL Thanks for all the great words.. I'm heading to bed cause tomorrow at 9am is the new day to a new me!!!

You all are the greatest... I love the forums where everyone steps up and helps another.. thank you all so much.. it's been an emotional day for me but I've spent the time making sure i have everything I need prior to the glorious event.. I'm excited... and can't wait...

Austin / Round Rock Area

Oh honey you're absolutely stunning.. what a beautiful woman... it's good to do it now while you're younger don't wait till your my age.. I just turned 50 and got diagnosed with Diabetes after blacking out walking into the ER lobby thinking I was having a heart attack... that was God's way of saying "Hey fat ass will you do something NOW?" LOL... oh what a wake up call.. but i'm like you... scared of losing my hair.. I know i'll lose weight... but I don't want to lose my hair LOL UGH I'm here if you need to vent hun... just keep your head up and do this for you, then do it for your precious son your husband will love you no matter what you do if he's any kind of man.. But start setting the example for your child... And always start the morning with great affirmations... I do... "Good Morning Starr.. you're going to have a great day and did I mention you look marvelous today, keep that smile going" and it helps... cause society as a whole puts us women of size down... I can do that myself! LOL Hugs hun!!!

Well I've waited and waited for this day to come... where I can see the surgery is within a few days and now of course.. FEAR HAS SET IN... UGH Dang it .. GO AWAY! I'm having alot of mixed emotions... I started this journey at 279lbs and I'm now down to 251lbs in less than 30 days so I know I'm doing everything right .. right now.. but I also don't have the small pouch yet. So in talking to my friend who just had the sleeve in Dec and might I add she looks AMAZING she's lost over 85lbs to date... I'm learning all sorts of new things.. like the leak test.. what on earth do you do if you can't take that barium syrup... I've never been able to take it ever there's something in it that makes me projectile vomit as soon as it hits my lips.. that frightens me cause I sure don't want to damage my new stomach... is there an alternative that will get the same results? And of course the million dollar question we all ask.. "Can I do this.. I mean REALLY"? ... I'm so afraid of failing and I love forums but we all know there is MUCH more negative then there is positive and I KNOW there's ALOT of positives out there ... but did anyone else really feel the same way, scared of losing hair, failing, giving up I honestly think I'm more worried about losing my freakin hair and how flippin shallow and stupid is that... Well to explain that.. my daughter has special needs and has no hair... so she plays with mine and braids it, pins it up, gets it all KNOTTED and ties it in knots LOL... I'd hate to lose it and she has nothing to play with... she dreams of being a hairstylist I hope she doesn't tie anyone else's hair in knots LOL So will someone please tell me that "I" am NORMAL... please... cause I'm not feeling normal right now... Have a blessed Sunday.. I'm going to have a Protein shake.. YUMMY *Gag* LOL'

I just posted this on another section here... but I loved the Atkins Chocolate but it had too much fat/calories so I had to stop taking it.. it was probably the best one I had .. I went to GNC and bought Jay Robb Egg White and that wasn't a good taste for me nor were his other flavors... I then switched to Unjury in Classic Chocolate and I'd add a drop of Banana or Cinnamon extract to give it a little twist when I was burnt out on the taste.. I make mine with a handheld mixer for drinks - 8oz of Skim Milk / Crushed Ice and the powder and I blend it till it's like a Malted Milk Shake ... when I'm at the office or in the car, I stop at a conv. store and get a small skim milk and I have a "Blender Bottle" that I swear by.. it makes it a different consistency that helps get it down smoother.. I now have to go to the clear liquid proteins after surgery I'm still trying to figure out what the heck those are! LOL

I LOVE the Atkins shakes but it had to much fat so I changed over to unjury Classic chocolate ... I got a Blender Bottle for work to make my shakes but at home I put some crushed ice and skim milk with the powder and use a handheld drink blender and make it frothy and cold like a shake and it's SO GOOD... The blender bottle is excellent for work if you can't stand the consistency of some of them.. I have to be on a liquid clear Protein shake i'm told... WHAT is that?? LOL

My Surgery is Wed... I'm frantic.. I have spent the entire day reading.. .so while I'm freakin out about my hair falling out, I'm also reading other garbage on other forums.. I just have to believe that God isn't ready for my butt up there so I'm going to be ok! LOL... The alternative is death if I don't do this.. and I'm just not ready to go... There are some awesome boots out there with this ladies name on them and I've not even begun to step in enough cow manure here in Texas This is a blessing for all of us... we all will be fine... I firmly believe that... and I somehow hit some little plus sign thinking it was the "like" button and it said it moved it up.. I'm so sorry I'm still learning the forum.. Best of luck to US ALL!!! Ain't it great to be a LOSER! LOL

I'm getting sleeved on the 6th.. and I hope it's normal to be nervous...

Starr Walker Facebook

I am the shape of plenty, the size of passion, the power of numbers, the future of fashion. A beautifully audacious curvaceous form. I am the average woman. I am the norm. I will not let the number on a scale decide my self worth. I choose to be a strong, intelligent Woman who is seen more for who she is on the inside, because Beauty is not what you see.. It's what you possess within. I realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change... or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. I have come to terms with the fact that you are NOT Prince Charming and I damn sure am NOT Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with ME...I am not perfect and not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what I am... and that's OK. You are entitled to your own views and opinions..I have stopped complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to me or didn't do for me. The only thing I can really count on is the unexpected. I've learned that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say. I realize that much of the way I view myself, and the world around me, is as a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into my psyche. And I begin to sift through all the junk I've been fed about how I should behave, how I should look, how much I should weigh, what I should wear, what I should do for a living, how much money I should make, what I should drive, how and where I should live, who I should marry, the importance of having and raising children, and what you owe your parents, family, and friends, is just WAY to freaking unbelievable! It takes ME away from "me". No more! I am learning to open new worlds and different points of view. I am starting to redefine who i am and what i stand for.......I am learning about love. Romantic love....how to love, how much to give, when to stop and when to walk away. I will NOT be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on my arm. I am learning to look at relationships as they really are and not as i would have them be. I am learning that just as people grow and change, so it is with love. And I am learning that I don't have the right to demand love on my terms, just to make me happy. Alone does NOT mean lonely! I have the right to want the things I want and it is sometimes necessary to make demands, but i have come to the realization that I deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect and I will NOT settle for less....I will only allow the hands of a lover who cherishes me to glorify me with his touch, that is just self-respect! Life isn't always fair. We don't always get what we THINK we deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting good people.

Austin -Surgery on April 6th