ElliottX9

So, this is my first entry, and planning to behave like a grown up and take control of my health and use this lapband tool properly. I read somewhere once that people who overeat are emotionally underdeveloped as they use food as a emotional escape - not true for everyone - but for someone like me, that rung a true and clear bell, and frankly, it really hurt. Can't remember how I responded, but I probably ate something.... I have read in a million different approaches to this type of task, that keeping a journal is ideal and helps in some way. I have no desire to keep a paper journal and run the risk of having it read upon my demise, or even before. This may be public, but it is only public to people who can relate to what is happening to and for me during this process. I don't expect anyone will read this, but as a journal this will serve nicely. My handwriting resembles ransom notes these days anyway! Next entry - after a trip to Paris - surely not the ideal place to commence healthy food choices, but this is a "for life" change so location should be irrelevant. I

I am a little further along (but not much!) from you in years - I am 36 - and at 31 I was exactly the same, like THIS year X, by the time I am 32, Y will have happened. Letting that go was very very liberating, and once I did, things came towards me. I am reading your blog because I am struggling - I have been banded a year and am plateaued at less than a desirable weight and feel like a complete loser. BUT, I am not going to give up. Like you, I am finding that my crack substitue (sugar!) gets through the band quite easily and therefore, I have to work out if I will ever be worthy of a normal sized body. Academically, everyone on this site would say yes, yet we are all struggling with that concept. You are not alone. Stay on the site and keep us informed. Caroline xx