MelAnne

This is soooo hard! No, I did not think it would be easy. Just a little easier. My doctor told me on my one week post op to go ahead and move to foods, what I can handle, and to choose wisely and healthy. I am avoiding carbs and sugar. Tomorrow is a new day, and a new chance not to sabotage myself right?

:help: :help: I am crazy. I am in need of professional help. But what I want to hear [read] is that if I eat protien as if I was following the Atkins diet, I will loose weight. I was down 19 pounds, and now I am up a pound. :faint: :faint: I feel like I have a little restriction, as when I eat something a little too fast, I get the pain in my chest and want to throw up. I seem to be able to graze a good bit. The items I am grazing on are things like (3) naturally sweet string peas and (4) pimento stuffed olives. Then I had a piece of jalapeno monterey cheese with salsalito turkey breast rolled up in it. (I ate the turkey and cheese too fast and did not chew) I bought things like tuna, and pork rinds, and chicken breasts (already cooked and fllavored) etc.. to take to work for my lunch. I have Boca chili, and Boca burgers, and Gordons frozen grilled fish. Trouble is, I don't want to eat it, as I do not want to gain weight. I was able to wear two pair of capri pants this weekend I have not been able to get into in a year, and now I worry I will not be able to get into them for a couple of months again, as I gain weight waiting on my restriction to get into place. Someone tell me I am on the right or wrong track. I want to loose about 50 to 60 pounds. I see others on here that have dropped that in less then a year. I want to do that too. I have whined here before I know. I am honestly at my wits end and know if I do not reach out and find the support and understanding I need, I will not find the courage and faith I need in myself. As always, thank you to anyone who reads and provides their honest opinions and thoughts on my craziness.

LOL The Puffed Rice was GROSSSSSS But tapioca pudding makes me wanna barf too!!! (it looks like a petri dish of cells)

Yeah, a little high in Carbs - I would not eat it as a Cereal, I would just snack on the little bisquets. Does anyone remember the TWO BIG shredded wheats you used to get and break up in a bowl of milk?? I used to love that stuff as a kid!!

Jen, I feel for you, I honestly do. My house is spic and clean. I am a clean freak. My job is fullfilling, and I do it 200% while I am at the office. My kids are older and not wanting me in their business. We watch a lot of TV. We eat in front of the TV. When hubby is not home, I am done with my cleaning, and milling around, I tended to graze. Now, I drink, walk, and visit my neighbors. Yes, I too am going crazy. I am trying to find new friends. This is an emotional time for us. Hang in there and if you ever want to chat, I am here for you!!! -Mel

Thanks Donna! I am drinking a good bit of Water, and exercising. Thats why I am suprised things are not moving along as they should. I will have to try the Shredded Wheat - is it high in FAT/SUGAR/CARBS ??

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Shredded Wheat? What are you talking about - now I don't understand you!!!! LOL LOL

Thanks - have some at home - will take it tonight. I am on solids, these are the solids I have eatin thus far: greenbeans, turkey and cheese wrapped in lettuce. A few olives. Thats about as solid as I have gotten. I am still dealing with the head crazies that I am going to have to see the scale move up rather then down now that I am on solids.

WAY TO GO GIRL !!!!!! I am so proud of you !!!!!!!!!! Ok, and jealous tooo!!!! :biggrin1:

I am two week post-op today. Aside from the first week of anything I drank (broth, Water etc...) passing thru me in the same manner .. liquids; I have not had anything else happen.

I am in Spring Texas. I drive a Chrysler Pacifica. THANK GOODNESS I ride a vanpool to and from work !!!!!!!!! Filling my 21 gallon tank is almost $60. If I were driving to and from work, I would be filling my car at least twice a week. But due to the vanpool I only have to fill up once a week, and my tanks not even empty when I do fill it up! Gas prices are too (WAY TOO) high.

Welcome to LBT - you will find the most patient, sweetest and helpful people here!!! I wish you the best for your journey!!

Yesterday I rolled cheese and turkey with a slice of avacado in the middle, wrapped in lettuce. It was small, about the length of my palm. All protien except for the avacado and lettuce. I ate it too fast. It was officially my first real food. I quickly felt like I needed to throw up and had to burp several times to get the feeling to pass. It wasn't extremly painful, and it passed quickly. So I have a little restriction, and am looking forward to being tighter!!!! I am so hopful that on May 28th, when get my first fill, I have some great restriction!!!

OH YES!!! I am very angry. I have been dealing with a lot of anger and depression, to the point I am not fighting the urge to diet harder and eat only empty items void of anything. No carbs no fat no nothing. I have about 50 pounds I want to loose to my personal goal. I have lost almost 18 and am so damned determined it is scarry. My sister had RNY and lost 112 pounds in 8 mths. I am the one that told her about this and she got her ins to approver her sooner. My FIL and so many others are watching me as they want to have surgery, but not something to radical as RNY, so I feel A LOT of pressure on top of it all. Yeah, I am screwed in the head. I know. But I think I am some what copeing. Sorda.

Thursday I went to for the post op appt. I was shocked to see that my port was where my port is !!!!! :eek: I asked him if he could prescribe me anything for the b!tchies and he just laughed. I did not. I am down 18.5 pounds. :eek: - thats his scales - mine still show a 17.5 and I am following mine. He told me not to watch calories. To do: high protien, low to no sugar, low carbs. He said to just focus on a well rounded balanced diet. I am mentally a mess. I do not want to eat anything with calories or carbs. I keep eating things that are void of anything. Greenbeans, vegtable broth.. I have splurged and had Taco Bell's Pintos and cheese and today had some almonds - 8 protiens, 3 carbs, and way too much salt. So, I will have to deal with Water retention! Tomorrow we are having friends over for poker, and I plan on serving sandwhich fixings, they can build their own on good rolls. I can have the turkey rolled in cheese. PLain and simple: If I eat only protien rich foods, and stay away from carbs and sugar, I should loose right? Thats the Atkins diet in a nut shell right? My appt for a fill is May 18 - and I asked him to be aggresive about this. I am trusting him, and he better be!!! So, what are you thoughts? You guys have helped so much in keeping me grounded!!! AND!!! Today I wore a pair of capri pants and a top I have not worn in almost a year!!! They were that stretchy material, but I am still happy about it. SMALL STEPS ... it's going to be a journey of small steps!

A man here in Houston, in a support group said the did the Fruit Punch one and while it wasn't the best tasting thing he had ever had, it wasn't the worse, and within 3 to 4 swollows it was gone. AND 25 GRAMS of protien!!! I am going to try the 4 pack trial size. Two of each flavor.

Wow!!! Thank you all!!! I have decided to carry measureing cups with me. I am going to carry a cup a half a cup and a fourth cup. Then I can put my food in it and eat from it. Thanks you guys!!!!

What are the tell-tell signs you are full? What does this "sweet" restrictin feel like? I have read a few things here and there about it, but I am a little confused.

My surgery date was Monday, April 17th too!!! Congratulations on your weight loss, and I wish you continued success!!!!

Thank you all for your very kind and helpful words of absolute wisdom. I know what you to say to be true and sound. I had some of the Pintos and cheese from Taco Bell last nite, and tonight I had some green Beans in cream of mushroom Soup. I had vegtable soup (Broth) for lunch. I am walking. I can not do the protien drinks. YUCK I am drinking as much Water as I can, with is 1 16oz bottle a day. I am not a coffee drinker, and had a 6oz cup of decaf this morning to settle my stomach. I know I need to work on more, and wise choices. I know I am going to have to deal with the hit of weight gain too. Every reward is worth the journey and lessons learned to earn it. Thank you again for being there for me. I am honestly greatful for your replies.

A) I am drinking not sipping. I am not a sipper. Is this going to be a serious issue for my success? My doctors post surgery diet is surprisingly unrestricted. I am able to have softfoods and build up to Tuna and Fish by this next Monday, when I am two weeks post op. chicken and Beef last. Steak WAAAY last. (I don't eat much beef anyway) Issue is I am honestly thinking bad bad bad thoughts. If I eat I will gain. = Don't eat. Well, what if I take diet pills too?! = You will loose weight dummy!! How on earth did I pass the psych eval people?!?!?!? I am crazy!

WONDERFUL AND CONGRATULATIONS ON BOTH! (surgery and house) BUT SURGERY MOST !!!!!!!!!!!

LOL I am crazy - no one should ever follow my actions here - I am already freaking out without my scales - my husband hid them last nite to help me stay true to my commitment to NOT WEIGH MYSELF - Unless the calendar says it is MONDAY AM!!!! LOL Tonight I am trying not to beat myself up for eating half a portion of Taco Bell's Pintos and cheese. Up to this point I have had very little - popcycles, Jello and pudding (all - SF) and a few table spoons of mashed potatos. Dr appt Thursday, gunna press him for a fill date.

YES!!!! I am very moody and upset!!! To top it off this morning I woke up with two spots on my face!!!! ZITS!!!! Yoda!! I love you!!! So far, if I have a question and don't post it - you do !!!!!!!!! *HUGS*