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Cheri to be honest I think I have the same problem cause what you said make sense. Only cause when I write stuff down my thoughts are always on food no matter what I am doing. What I can eat what I can't remember to write it down it stress me out. Now I still am looking at my food and calories I am not writing it down. As far as the pain in my right side I woke up this morning it is still their not as bad though. Well lunch got canceled so I will start the 5 day today. Day 1 liquids

So I do not know if you guys remember me saying that I have had alot of bloating and my left side hurts under my ribs. If you put your left hand under your left rib and press that is where it hurts. This is not anywhere near my port as that is much higher closer to my left breast. Something triggers the pain cause it is not a constant. I don't know if it is a type of food or eating to much. Sometimes it feels like I can't take a deep breath in. Usually this happens at night and my stomach bloats up but by morning everything is down again. Any Suggestions??? Body wise what is on your left side because all my past medical issues have been on my right side. Gall Bladder (removed) Pancreatitis and liver issues. Actually after reading more about Pancreatitis it sounds like I have it again however to get diagnoised I would have to have blood tests and a CT or xray of my Pancreasis. Treatment is a week in the hospital on IV and nothing by mouth. What would you guys do? Do you think i could get away with just calling my doctor and having blood work done? But that won't be till Monday like I said the pain goes away eventually.

I can't wait I like his show when it was on he seems really smart and very nice and understanding about how we feel. I won't go away I feel really good I am not bored or depressed. I am happy my job is physical let's just pray now that I can get full time hopefully within 3 months or less would be good. Jewel - Yeah I am so happy for you what a surprise. I am also excited that your son is getting better.

Thank You for the info Janet Thank You Thanks Meredith sometimes its hard cause my jeans are a little tight but I do not want to buy knew ones. But I think they will be feeling looser soon. I am staring the 5 day on Sunday only cause we have lunch plans with family tomorrow but I plan on sticking with the protein, veggie and fruit thing

Just finshed my hot bath I feel clean, comfy and relaxed. Two days off and back to work Sunday. So far it has been good for me, staying busy and "working out" . Thanks to everyone for your kind words and help with me getting back on track Love you all. I am going shopping either tomorrow or Sat to get all my Protein needs. I still have stuff so I might wait we will see. So what is everyones feeling on fruit or greek yogurt is that a no no. I eat fruit for the sweetness but maybe that backfires I don't know since I can eat fruit know I have been. When I was tighter I could not eat fruit

Great - Oh yeah alot of hard work everything she said is correct. Sams and Costco are similar except some things one store sells that the other doesn't. My Mom leaves real close to both of them so she shops at both.

Just got home I am eating some dinner my hubby cooked. chicken and green Beans yum. Then I am going to take a nice hot bath. I know that is what is kindof exciting paid to exercise. LOL I am working in the Deli Dept. Except for cooking the chicken and the Ribs in the hot room everything else is in a room that stays 41 degrees or out on the floor stocking the deli sliced meats and cheeses Janet - Me too that why I am glad I went back into retail. Jewel - Congrats on passing your tests

So I knew it woke up sore today. I have another 8 hrs of work for the day. (don't get me worng I am grateful) Just my body is probably saying what the heck are you doing to us. LOL Anyways just a quick Hi and I am going to get ready for work. I will post this evening when I get home. Laura - I am glad you got an answer for your itching Kelly - WTG!!!!

Linda -thank you for the information. I actual have the 5 day pouch test book. I plan on getting more things this weekend to prepare some meals in advance but right now I am doing pretty well with the food could be better but I am taking it one day at a time

Ouch let me say again Ouch. Today was my first real day working. Standing, lifting, cleaning, making meals doing the works. Stair climbing walking everywhere. So I got what I wanted a labor intensive job. Remember my jobs have not been physical at all since 2001. So if I am sore now I will feel it more tomorrow I am going to take a warm bath and some aleve and go lay down. But I am happy

Oh ingrown lashes I was a little confused. That must be how they figured out how to grow lashes was from glaucoma patients having to have them removed. Is it not crazy how they come up with knew drugs. So your Mom has to go through that.

Thanks Apples you are the best Kelly - Congrats Keep it up Charlene - Am I reading this right eyelashes removed????? Janet - Actually I am not a demo person I make the ready to cook meals Sams club has in their deli dept. for people to buy and just stick in there oven for 30 mins or so and it is done Cheri - I with you on the protein train - Choo Choo

I don't know where everone went on this thread but with the changes with the website I think people got lost. Butterflies we should do a check in

I completely understand that the closer I got to wonder land the more relaxed I became with my thinking and well here I am.

Great - To answer your question I am carb sensitive- so it was not the best choice but that is okay I am working on getting better with my mind and my eating. Sam's said they promote from within as well. I probably will be part time until after my 90 days then I pray FT will open up. Sam's and Walmart are for the most part the same company but in Orientation I learned that some policies are very different. Julie - I am glad you got some relief and someone is paying attention. What does it mean when they say you have serious inflammation issues? How do you get that? Just wondering I will google later. I am so happy you are getting somewhere keeps us posted. Love you Yes that is me in a nutshell. That is why I try not to way but when I realized my clothes where not fitting I knew I gained sortof did not think it was as much as it was but with my BIG GIRL PANTIES on I am working through this. Laura - is your rash painful or just annoying with itching??? I forgot is your husband a DR? If so I guess you have it under control I hope you get better soon. So today I go to work at 2pm until 7pm. I woke up and my upper stomach (under my breasts) is all bloated and hurts what the heck is that? I am on my period but it the end so I should not be bloated maybe it was something I ate last night. So this morning I am drinking my coffee. I am going to get ready and do my Zumba on the WII and get in some exercise before work. I plan on eating my Greek yogurt shower and get ready with the day. Next week I work 7am - 3pm which will be great but this week and the week of New Years my shifts are all over the place. So it is 14 degrees outside right now going to warm up to 32 (So hot LOL) I so miss living in Fl sometimes (I was born in Miami and lived in Kissimmee til I was 19). I mention the temp because I found out when I actually move to my dept. to train my work enviroment when I make meals is 41 degrees but when I am not making meals it will be warm if not hot in other areas how the heck do you dress for that??? I giess I will put a pullover sweatshirt in my locker.

I feel I had a good day. first I had some coffee then later I ate greek yogurt for breakfast then a banana for a snack. I had a chicken ceaser salad for lunch , probably too many calories since it was what I bought from the cafe at work. But I know now they have microwaves at work so I can bring stuff. Yeah!! I just got home from work and had half a cucumber with half cup pasta with italin dressing on it which I do not think was too bad. I am cooking sliced turkey for dinner which will take about an hour or so and will have a fruit for dessert. I walked on my 15 min break around work and climbed the stairs alot today to get to my locker, break area, and the training room. So I feel pretty good today. I will have a better idea on calories tomorrow when I bring my food. I do not go into work until 2 tomorrow so I plan on doing Zumba in the morning on my WII

Kimaly and other butterflies struggling I wanted to share what has been going on and the wonderful advice I got. First is my post Okay lets here the tough love My lowest on the band was 211 then my head freaked out and I gained. Thought I needed a fill then was too tight and ate sliders and dealt with acid reflux and gained Dr took out half of my fluid in my band because I was too tight and my stomach was swollen and he worried I would have a band slip. And I have gained more weight. So I went from 211 to 253 as of this morning. I am kind of upset with myself but it is my doing with all the job stress of the several months. Lay Off, then New Job that sucked, then now a knew job which I think it will keep be very busy (which is a good thing) and not exercising I did this to myself (so maybe upset is not the right word since I did this and I really did know what I was doing) So today is a NEW day I need to exercise and eat consciously. I am about to go to work so just wanted so prayers or love today from you all to help me with my personal demon battle. I love you all and your friendship has meant so much too me through all of my good times and bad. This post is from apples on I'm here to help message board Well Melissa...you've got the love from all of us and I think you have been kicking yourself around enough the last few months so that is something you really don't need from us. In order to be successful and get back on the LB wagon, you are going to need to let some of that go (beating yourself up) and get into a positive frame of mind. Boohooing will get you nowhere. Here comes the tough love.....GET YOUR BIG GIRL PANTIES ON!!!!!! Leave the mistakes of the last few months behind you and somehow....anyway you can....find the part of you that was able to stick to this and take off the weight in the beginning of this journey. Get rid of certain ways of thinking. Example: Eating because of stress, eating sliders because of being too tight, eating because of a new job, eating certain things because DH and DS bring them into the house. Stop THAT way of thinking and replace it with postive ways. Example: I WILL NOT eat because I am stressed, I WILL NOT eat sliders (I will go and take care of problem at hand with my doc), I WILL NOT give myself the right to screw up just because I have a new job, I WILL NOT eat those trigger foods just because they are in my house (alternative is to toss them in the trash....pretend you are Janet). Nothing would make me more happy than to pop on here in two weeks to see a post from you that says "I have stuck to this new plan and have not waivered for two weeks and I am seeing results"....now, that would bring tears to my eyes. Get back on that old horse and start riding. Was that tough enough love???? Love ya and sending hugs. OK....Let's get started on the two week plan....hurry up....let's go...come on Melissa....time to start.

Apples you knew what I needed you made me smile at putting my big girl panties on. I used to say that alot I guess I forgot to do it. I feel I had a good day. first I had some coffee then later I ate greek yogurt for Breakfast then a banana for a snack. I had a chicken ceaser salad for lunch , probably too many calories since it was what I bought from the cafe at work. But I know now they have microwaves at work so I can bring stuff. Yeah!! I just got home from work and had half a cucumber with half cup Pasta with italin dressing on it which I do not think was too bad. I am cooking sliced turkey for dinner which will take about an hour or so and will have a fruit for dessert. I walked on my 15 min break around work and climbed the stairs alot today to get to my locker, break area, and the training room. So I feel pretty good today. I will have a better idea on calories tomorrow when I bring my food. I do not go into work until 2 tomorrow so I plan on doing Zumba in the morning on my WII Thanks Apples for your love Great - Yes when I said Sam's I meant Sams club. I am PT right now cause they only hire in PT but I hope too get full time soon. But so far in Orientation it seems that Sams and Walmart really take care of there people. Mrs Bubba - I agree with Apples I hope you can get a Dr that will strip down your history and start over and get you on the correct path. Love and prayers for you

Okay lets here the tough love My lowest on the band was 211 then my head freaked out and I gained. Thought I needed a fill then was too tight and ate sliders and dealt with acid reflux and gained Dr took out half of my Fluid in my band because I was too tight and my stomach was swollen and he worried I would have a band slip. And I have gained more weight. So I went from 211 to 253 as of this morning. I am kind of upset with myself but it is my doing with all the job stress of the several months. Lay Off, then New Job that sucked, then now a knew job which I think it will keep be very busy (which is a good thing) and not exercising I did this to myself (so maybe upset is not the right word since I did this and I really did know what I was doing) So today is a NEW day I need to exercise and eat consciously. I am about to go to work so just wanted so prayers or love today from you all to help me with my personal demon battle. I love you all and your friendship has meant so much too me through all of my good times and bad.

Welcome Swan asked any questions we are all here for you. It is awesome you have such a wonderful support group. Your Dad should come around if you explain to him why you need to do this. But remember most of all you are doing this for yourself. Unfortunately some of us have people in our lives who will never understand others have chose not to tell certain people. Ask anything you want there are people on this board from all walks of life and all stages of their journey

Meredith, I was going to OA for a while then all my job crap got in the way i was looking to going back cause it help to be around people who had eating issues. I would say I am a compulsive eater as well. I forgot who it was but someone on this board was talking to me about it. You can go online and get information about meetings and they will send you information as well. I think it is hard for people like our group because our addiction is food and we need food to live unlike people who are in NA or AA who can just put themselves in an enviroment that does not contain the Drugs or Alcohol. I know in OA that is a book and a workbook basically it is the same 12 steps like AA. I did find it informative and like I said once I get settle into my new job I going to get myself back together with a plan of attack to get myself under control and losing again. I have a couple of more days of orientation and then I start working in my dept most likely Thurs so then I will know more of what is expected of me.

Julie - I pray you can get an answer soon and they put you on the right meds so you will get some relief. What about it being fibromyalgia? My MIL has that and I know it is a body wide pain. I am no Dr just putting in my two cents. Anyways I am a big googler when it comes to finding information out. I am just a person or patient rather that needs to know. I had a DR once tell me medicine is a guess. And you know for Dr I think it is they ask questions to weed things out but if we present them with a problem they know nothing about then it stumps them and I think some Dr get scared. On the Xanax issue that does help with panic attacks. But there is other meds out there that help and are longer acting. I tried Cymbalta but that did not work for me I am on Seroquel and Pristiq with something else I forget the name and so far this combination has helped. I was on Lexapro and Welbrutin for a couple of years but then my body got used to it and we had to switch. So right now I am taking 3 meds to help with the three different chemicals in your brain that deal with depression and Panic attacks. I hope my info helps. Julie take care of yourself and again I really hope and pray you can get relief soon.

Julie - I think I missed it somewhere. If you don't mind me asking why do you get so much pain? It seemed like you are pain free for a awhile and then it comes back vary bad. I hope you do get some relief soon.

Sandy - can I just say my parents getting older scares me granted they are both in there mid 60's but my dad had a stroke in 95 and since then I worry cause he works a phyiscally hard job and when I see him on his off days he can barely walk - bad knees, arthritis. So I understand how you feel. I know it is not the same age wise but I guess I always thought of my dad as a can do anything my hero and then my hero got sick and so I worry. I am a daddy's girl always have been. My Mom and I got closer after she had bypass then I had the LB 8 years later so we are close as well. Anyways I understand. Apples - thanks for the support. I am planning on a new start I go shopping today. I CAN DO THIS!!!!! I have even thought about walking to work I am not sure on the miles but the drive is like 10 - 15 mins depending on traffic. And there is sidewalks some of the way

Sorry I am not much help I am in the same cycle. That is why I am hoping this new job will be more physical so that will help