"So I was reading your post and it occurs to me, Why do we do this to ourselves? I want the success, but there is a part of me, I think, that makes me believe, sometimes, alone in the dark, back in the corner of my head that thinks I can not be successful..."
I lost 90 pounds on my own a few years ago because I wanted to avoid the surgery...but after 90 pounds...and feeling great and getting compliments...I started sabotaging myself. FOR ME...I think I have used my weight as an excuse..the reason I am not________is because I am fat....the reason I don't have _______is because of my weight,...
And so if I lost all the weight I would no longer have any excuses..now none of this is concious...but I think it is legit...also, I am single and I think sometimes I keep men at bay by being overweight..I get in relationships..but can use weight as the reason they do not succeed.
Just some thoughts
Cindi