Deanayeah

Hi October 2nd people! Have you tried to introduce soup yet?

(October 2nd surgery) I can only speak for myself.. but I know the depression is definitely setting in because I’m sitting home all day thinking about the food I can’t have. I have to imagine anyone in the world would feel this way after almost a week of eating nothing at all with substance! I’ve been so down on myself & crying all day but I’m having a moment of clarity! We’re all going to get through this. 2 months goes by so fast and by then we’ll all see results, feel healthier, & be on a normal diet! We can do this (even though most of the time in the last 4 days I’ve felt like I can’t at all... I’m sure I’ll be crying again later) I miss food. But of course I miss food because for the last 26 years every time I was upset I have pasta or something else delicious. I got my period this week too & have had diarrhea too (my doctor says protein shakes do that) but honestly it feels nice to have something not staying in my body and making me feel so full. I’m down 16 pounds since they weighed me at the hospital pre-op but I don’t believe that because different scales give different numbers. But 9lbs using only my scale. I’m scared the weight will stop coming off. I’m scared I’m going to mess this all up. Scared I’m stuck being like this forever. Scared I made a mistake getting the surgery.... But we all did it. We’ve made it this far. Through all the appointments, all the times someone at those appointments asked you to say your weight out loud, through the pain of surgery. Everything. Which I can only HOPE means we can push through these next two months. I know this is so long and I’m sorry. But no one else understands. Remind me when I’m hysterically crying at 3am wishing I could have a slice of pizza that there was a point when I saw clarity in all of this hahaha. I have faith in all of us (well all of you at least) it’s going to get better

Thank you so much! Exactly what I needed to hear because right now it feels like it will never get better! I hope your journey is going great as well!

I haven’t tried ice yet! I’ll do that! Thank you!!!

They did but they’re not helping all that much.. it’s my first night home and I just can’t get comfortable at all! I wish this would get better faster. Maybe I’m just being dramatic

Had surgery on the 2nd and I’m in so much pain.. anyone have any idea when it stops hurting like this? I can’t even sleep

Ahhh getting more excited for tomorrow than nervous. Getting scared a little for the next 2 months but I’m sure everyone if feeling that! Hope everyone going tomorrow is doing well too!!!

I don’t start til Monday! But just bought all my things for it! How’s it going for you?

I’m almost a week away from surgery! Extremely ready and excited! I’m 26 years old and I’m just beyond happy to start this new journey. I guess what brought me here is this: last night laying in bed I asked my boyfriend if he had faith in me through this process. After a LONG pause he basically said “maybe”. He’s apologized this morning but that doesn’t take away from the fact that the closest person to me doesn’t really think I’m going to do a great job. Just looking at all of your positive thoughts has helped me stop being upset; so thank you! I hope it works out for me as it did for everyone on the posts I’ve been reading!!