Thank you both for the wonderful replies. Sherrie, I appreciate your honesty and reassurance. You're at half of your HW, that's wonderful, but it also looks like you've been doing good. Thankfully I have support, parents flying in, lady friend flying in, a friend who is off of work, and another who may take off work as well. Bonus points to you for having to tough out at least for first steps by self.
Marieac2, thank you for your reply as well. Your progress as well is to be lauded, congratulations! I know myself, and I understand that my relationship with food (and drink) is for every social occasion - celebration and eat some cake, sorrow and raise a toast to a lost love one, boredom, etc etc. I feel with the medically supervised weight loss, I've been able to put a dent into that mentality. I feel that my medical knowledge is somewhat ironically my double edged sword: I feel like I can understand what I need to do quickly, but we are trained to nitpick details (example, when my surgeon says something, what are the pros and cons of a recommendations. I can't turn it off, so I choose to ignore it. And FYI, Medicine uses different levels of evidence, as detailed through this link: https://www.uspreventiveservicestaskforce.org/Page/Name/grade-definitions#grade-definitions-after-july-2012 )