morbidobesity

Hi everyone, After I got out of a bad/ abusive/toxic relationship. I feel ever so lonely. I could literally go for days without talking to anyone outside my job if my family never called. I typically went to the supermarket Everyday so I could Exchange a few words with the cashier as stupid as it seems. During that whole period I turned to food to comfort and only now after breaking up with her over a year ago and finally kicking her out of my house a few months back I am getting back to how I was. Lost many close friends , distanced for family and now working it’s difficult to go out and ‘party’ .Most depressing part about it that my Ex was a feeder and I believe it was her intent to get me as fat as she could so no one would find me attractive. I feel so detached from my body and since being put on a cpap I would never stay anywhere overnight as I find it embarrassing. I look at Pictures of myself from 5 years ago and all I think to myself how different my Life would be if I didn’t get involved with this person. Just a small rant, I need to vent my thoughts.