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I got the Lap Band done when i was 14 years old, i weighed 245 pounds standing at 5'1. I wasn't prepared for the mental change I had to make in order to lose weight. The surgery was suggested by my mother and I, being bullied and overweight, excitedly agreed to have it done. Im 20 years old now, and i weigh 165. I am still considered obese. My journey has been a roller coaster ride to say the least. I lost maybe 30 pounds in the first year, i was around 200-190 until i was 18. I ate fairly healthy most of the time and i went to the gym religiously always running on the treadmill and lifting weights. My biggest problem was i would binge, i would binge until i had to throw up i couldnt handle any more food. I didn't tell anyone this and my mom thought my lack of weight loss was because my band wasn't at the sweet spot. I went and got a fill, i cannot remember how many cc's but it was tight. I couldn't eat barely any food, and sometimes i would throw up just because of fluids. I was still working out like crazy and i got down to 139, but i was very unhealthy. I kept telling my mom i needed to get some taken out but she said i was doing good. Eventually she cracked and took me to a doctor in toronto- not my regular doctor. The doctor took out quite a bit and i was finally able to eat again. I went back up to 180 pounds over the course of a year and i hated myself. I had a spout of 6 months where i was completely and utterly healthy with the balance of food and exercise, but it did not last. I haven't seen a doctor in over a year, my fill isn't that full and i binge regularly again. I moved to a different province and I don't really know what to do, i never had a strong follow up since i began due to getting the surgery done in Mexico, and having my doctor in the US while i lived in canada. It's been 6 years and i am no where were i thought i would be and i am feeling hopeless and depressed.